i miss baobei so much now... she is in skool..
early in the morning, she is reprimanded by my sis and mum for not wanting to drink..
and being very bad temper..
i kept quiet there.. not becos she is not in the fault.. but is becos, i felt sry..
for not having enough time to teach her..
when she has mi around, she doesnt seems to be afraid of anyone..
becos mummy won allow them to beat her..
and i wouldnt scold her..
i will jus pls her to listen..
i think i fail to be a mummy right?
but my point is to make her listen even when i don beat her and scold her..
at least she only listen to mi..
but...
her daddy is so busy that he didnt reply..
i wanted to tell him and help mi think of a solution to guild dion...
dion had some mosquito bites and is kinda serious after returning from daddy hse..
or maybe he feels guilty to reply..
i didnt scold him..
i jus tell him not to let mi be the last to know..
i had to hear the skool teacher telling mi, then my parents scolding mi on the phone jus becos they felt so heartache..
how would i feel then?
dion is my gem..
she is someone i went through all pains and see her grow..
i had to be scolded when i didnt even know..
i cried myself too..
but what ever happen had happened..
no point blaming each other for the mishap...
i had so much in work..
i had so much to handle..
i had to keep myself sick free..
as i had 5 outlets, and dion to look after..
but i am jus tired..
sometimes when i see dion misbehaving..
i really felt like tendering my resignation letter jus becos i can spend more time wit her..
2 jobs offer awaiting mi..
2 gd offer..
but i still wanna do my best till next yr when everything goes on track..
it may be the toughest time now for mi..
but the road ahead for mi is longer..
being a single mum, i had so much to learn..
dion dad doesnt seems to be in great help to mi..
thou i wish he can..
i had to speak to him like how i speak to dion..
i had to pls him to help..
he is not working now..
but he doesnt seems to be worry..
maybe all ppl was right..
i too pampered him too much..
how will it become when suddenly, i am not around..
what will happen to my princess..
i needed more rest now..
gonna tidy up my room and rest..
attending boss wedding in sentosa two more days..
had lots of thing to plan for work..
and of course, i would wanna spend more time wit princess..
xuemin