happy bday daddy poh:)
first time i wished u a happy birthday i jus wanna tell u that thx for ur changed..
throughout the yrs, i have been strict and unreasonable wit u..
i have to force u to grow becos if i am not around, at least dion has u..
i have to teach u how to be a gd daddy not becos i am very gd..
but i jus want us to educate dion the same way and make no big different when she is back to u one day..
i had to set a higher expectation for u not becos u are very prefect..
is becos u had to taught to start from that level so that u wouldnt fail again..
no matter how ur frenx says and talk about u..
i olways believe that at least u would listen to my advice and make the correct decision in ur life..
i had to protect u..
making it a habit to see u and dion both safe and protected..
not becos i wanted u to get use to mi..
but is becos i have to see u through and make ur life as carefree so that u wouldnt blame dion to take ur youth away..
i wanted to see u happy becos when u are happy, u will think about dion more..
i don mind letting u out to the life that u wanted and tie myself down to the life of parenting myself..
one day when u are sick of ur carefree life, thing won be so tiring for u to start all over again..
i don need u to love mi, i jus need u to love dion more..
becos u are the next closer kin to her if anything mishap gonna happen to mi..
i think far for dion future, sending her to gd skool, to start a gd life becos at least even if u have ur own family in future, u will still be proud of having dion as ur elders daughter and she will be a very gd example for her brothers and sisters in future..
i am sry that i couldnt explain why i have to treat u so bad till u hate mi..
i don mind, as long as i get to see ur change..
i am reali glad..
so happy that dion has u as a dad..
i think back to when i had dion..
and u asking mi to do a abortion..
but luckily u didnt force mi too..
becos having dion by myside is my everything now..
u had everything in life that u wanted..
i lost everything.. my dreams, my youth and my future..
i start all over again to give dion a life even i have to go through hardships..
ppl told mi, they feel that i am a strong and role model as a single mum..
they felt is very tough..
but looking at our princess now, u know how i felt?
i jus wanted to thank u for leaving her wit mi..
for making the accident to happen and let mi be expecting her..
u played a important role in my life..
u are the one i truly ever love in my life..
u are the one who taught mi how to settle down and make mi believe that love an trust can be connected..
u make mi lose my pride and ego and makes u the only guy that able to do that..
u change my whole life within 3 months and left mi..
i learned alot these yrs without u by myside and become stronger then before..
and next i am gonna think hard for the next few yrs or rest of my life without u by myside, what am i gonna do..
i wanna use my own hands, start my dreams and work very hard for dion..
not talkin about rs anymore for the time being..
i wanna commit more into mi and dion future..
so one day when u start ur own family, mi and dion wouldnt be ur worries anymore..
is not tough to be a mum or dad..
but is tough when i had to play both roles in the same time to bring up princess..
but i am glad u are beginning to help mi pick up ur own role..
so i can concentrate more on my dreams plan..
i wanna make u proud one day that the lil girl u knew 3 yrs ago, has become a independent women..
i thought of revenging u for treating mi that way before..
but it wouldnt make mi happy..
now, this kind of us and dion..
feels alot comfortable and happier am i right?
thx for loving mi before and taught mi what is life..
lastly, happy 25th bday..
dion bday is next month..
anticipating:)
xuemin
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