is been so long since i blogged..
had my link changed..
had choose to end this tragic wit my own decision..
everything should go back to how it should end..
is jus that for 3 yrs, i nv wanted to let go..
i thought that one day i might be still a useful person in his life..
but since he had someone by his side now..
i became useless..
i had to smile and bless him..
i choose to free him back then..
and now, dion no longer gonna be a middle person of us..
i will hug dion and carry on this story..
i am still learning to be stronger..
to smile, to laugh, to eat well, to slp well and to even behave normally..
trying not to shed anymore tears..
3 yrs and is already over..
i couldnt say, i cant mention anymore from now on..
about how much i love him..
how much i wanted him to change..
how much i miss him..
becos he is happy right now..
and that is what makes my leaving worthy...
no one will love him more then i do other then his family..
but the only thing is, i can nv stay beside him anymore..
i am still standing strong..
and working harder everyday now jus to give baby princess a gd life..
i had my plans..
and 8 more months to go..
recently, i had alot of free time..
but was all used up for my twins sister..
helping her to move hse and settle down..
they have shifted to a new hse..
and is awesomely beautiful..
looking at her, seeing her happy..
i felt that part of my job as a sister is done..
my younger sister has grown up..
she had a family, a home of herself and soon gonna plan for a new life again..
bad things happen to her..
but that makes her stronger..
i am glad to see her change and grown up..
i love her alot..
had so much time wit her lately..
and olways on the same topic everyday..
about asking mi to start a new rs..
even marcus's ahyee too..
trying to talk round mi to find my own happiness..
thought about it this few days..
someone told mi this: "u should stop the thinking of if he is happy and u will be happy, is time to be happy becos u deserve it"
well..
i am still quite unwilling..
but i promise, i won say no if i met someone of my ideal bf...
my job is done here..
pack myself up and start a new job..
but dion will olso come first no matter what...
princess consulted another doctor again..
hopefully this time she will be fine..
still coughing and having flu..
but well, she is getting so use to this princess life..
but she deserve it..
becos she is from a single mum family..
threw away clothes of dion and mi..
not throw, is donated..
even elder sis too...
and start to look around more new clothes..
i love dion poh..
xuemin