on mc again..
went to consult another doctor instead of the one i visited 3 time but end up no different..
this time round, this doctor says is a nose infection..
it can be very serious if i haben recover..
becos it has already been 2 months and more..
and things getting serious when i started to bleed occasionally..
so many medicine to take..
but i only took a day mc..
becos i am able to see him after a long day tml in work..
i miss him frankly..
not using dion as an excuse to see him..
is becos of dion i can get to see him..
i couldnt do anithing..
can only see him from aside playing and smiling to dion..
i wanted to see him smile..
it will be the best motivation to work harder to prove him that i have change to be better..
i work so hard jus to make sure he knows i become such a gd girl now..
no longer then norti girl that he know 2 yrs ago..
the immature girl..
he might be the same, but i still love him for who he is..
even he is different, i will still love him..
even if he is moving on well and have a better gf, i still love him alot..
no one gonna love him more then i do..
and jus becos i love him, i let him go from this responsibility..
no one can be able to understand this unless u master then word love..
after i met him, i mastered love..
i gave up all including a better life that i can lead if i made another choice at that time..
but i choose to have dion out becos i love him..
he left mi, but he gave mi our princess..
i nv hate him.. i jus wanna be nasty to him so that he donnoe i still love him..
i envy those women having a happy family wit their love ones..
but some ppl envy mi for having dion independently..
taking up all responsibility and forbid him coming to find dion..
i may be wrong..
but i don wanna see him unhappi being tied by dion..
he wants to be a dad, but he is yet to be ready to be one..
doing all this is not to torture him,
i am torturing myself..
i am punishing myself becos i didnt show him how much i love him before..
jus becos i am immature and not a gd gf..
i am sry..
jus fetch dion from skool bus, the aunt says she bite someone in skool today..
waiting for teacher to call mi.. hope is nth serious..
will have to punish this girl this time round..
xuemin