i didnt slp well ystd nite.. jus becos i know i will get to see him after 2 months..
i miss him alot..
and early morning seeing his car stopping infront of mi and dion..
it felt like a dream..
we was very happy today..
a very tiring day..
but what hurt mi was mi hearing him coughing so badly and i couldnt do anithing..
the day when we broke up.. i made him promise mi that he will lead a better life then mi..
everytime i see him he is most likely having cough..
u can break ur promise to mi when u say u wanna be wit mi forever..
but u cannot break the promise that u will lead a better life then mi..
i let u go seeing u troubled..
i wan u to show mi that u are living healthier and happier then i do..
i feel so heartpain but i couldnt do anithing..
made him and dion drink lots of water as dion olso having cough..
both of them are so happy playing wit each other..
and that makes mi feel happy too..
been so long that i laugh and smile like this..
i carry bag of dion's stuff, he helped look after dion more..
i know he is tired too..
he seldom wake up so early and he took a leave to accompany us to this outing and then came to pick us up from my hse even thou i told him i can take a cab there myself..
he must be slping now...
but i jus did something without his consent..
very scare that he might quarrel wit mi again..
i book a full body check up for him..
i jus wan him to look after his body more..
no matter how much it will cost, i will pay..
jus like dion, whatever she love, she likes or things she adore..
i will give..
he nv gonna know how important is him to mi..
felt like crying when i see him sick..
i know i couldnt interfere much..
but when he is sick, i am suffering..
i feel like making myself even sick to make it seems like he did what he promise to mi..
when he sent us home, when is still raining..
i told my parent i go down and buy things..
and i stood under the rain for like 15 mins hoping for a fever to come..
i am having nose infection still..
i know what i did is silly..
that is becos i love him..
is only for him, i will become so brainless..
but i donnoe how to make myself feel better when i couldnt see him gd..
it reali hurts mi alot..
how is this guy treating himself this 2 yrs..
i hope he could have a gf now, so that she will help take gd care of him..
it shouldnt be like this mr pjd..
afterall, my two sweetheart has alot of fun today..
we went to underwater world..
we even went to the dolphin and sealion show..
at the busy crowd, i can only see him and dion sight..
and importantly, after so long he and dion sees each other..
dion was looking for her papa..
dion love him too right..
not as much as mi and him love her..
but she love him..
then bonding between dion and him..
is amazingly strong..
i have to admit it..
he love her too..
protecting every part of her..
seeing her safe and sound even when she is trying to do crazy stuff to scare us..
mi and him has a heart on dion that we won wanna see her suffer..
he is ready to be a dad, but jus that he didnt know..
or maybe he jus don wanna be tied down..
i donnoe..
i will upload some pics tml i guess..
don feel like doing it now..
but those ppl who is my friend on fb gets to see the album first..
i am gonna have a very nice slp today..
the sweetest part today, he hug dion and pat her to slp.. till he fell aslp too..
and i get to see both my sweetheart slping..
without he knowing, i was looking at both of them..it means alot to mi..
becos at that moment, i felt like a family..
and even thou when we was in macdonals eating..
dion is so crunky.. throwing and wasting food..
but that is the scene where ppl would envy..
all three of us laughing away and he trys to be fierce to dion but when dion smile back to him instead..
throughout my 20yrs of living.. i am jus awaiting for today.. at that moment to be real for mi..
gd nite daddy poh, gd nite princess poh..
and gd nite world..
xuemin