have to go to bed soon after this post..
i had a long day today and tml gonna be another long day too..
had a service excellent talk sent by company to represent..
have to be awake by 5.30am to prepare myself..
then dion will wake up at 6.30am..
and i will prepare her up for skool..
7.30am send her down to skool bus and then head straight to the talk..
i don have time at all..
especially ppl around mi are trying their best to introduce nice and gd looking and even guy that even meets my high expectation..
i have to turn all of them down as i have a valid reason.. jus becos i don have time to get involve..
but i know, time is control by myself..
is olways mi myself deciding..
i jus don wanna make more new frenx..
i jus don wanna move my heart away from him..
i have alot of choices out there..
i have plenty..
becos to ppl, i am capable.. i am those women that they are wanting for..
i jus wanna keep myself aside from all complicated and sophisticated stuff..
wasting my precious time and energy..
he and she both is enough to keep mi occupied..
he occupy my mind and she took up all of my time..
is fair right?
i olways tell ppl..
my expectation is very high..
i wan a bf who is responsible..
i wan a bf who earn alot..
a bf who drive..
a bf who owns his own hse..
i wan a bf who allow and understand mi that i don have time..
i need a bf who cant voice out saying that they wan mi to give in..
i cant accept a guy who try to decide what i wanna eat and wear..
wherever i go, don expect mi to make reports...
but deep down in mi..
i ask myself, "if that person is him?"
and my answer is, i will do whatever he says..
i don need him to be rich..
i don need him to have a must to drive..
i jus wan him to be happy by myside..
becos i am very truthful to him..
don force mi to walk away from him..
my heart jus wanna be like this..
if the day i decide to stop loving him..
i will use the best method to forget him..
which is to get into another rs..
all right..
gonna rest already..
5 more hrs i have to be awake..
when i reach home jus now, mum came into my room wit a big bowl of congee..
i am lying dead on bed becos i am so tired..
thx mummy for her effort...
xuemin