soon gonna be on bed..
will be off this coming fri, so i have time to prepare for dion skool stuff..
her small uniform has been washed..her mattress sheets are ready to be used..
her new shoes is bought..
her new water bottle has olso been bought by her granny(daddy's mum)
her scrunchies for her hair is ready too..
her towel, her handkerchief, her diapers, her milk powder
arhx! i am so so excited..
most of all, i am ready to send her to skool for the very first time..
i donnoe how she is gonna react..
i am scare she will cry..
and i am even worry that i will cry wit her..
hahax...
so so confuse right!?
hugging her to slp, seeing her so sweet...
i couldnt bear..
i wanted my off day wit her around the hse making mi angry but i couldnt scold her..
hahax..
i will miss the noise she make..
i will miss all the toys lying all around the hse..
i am gonna miss her alot..
calling out for mi, asking mi to carry her and bring her down to play..
or even carry her to get tidbits and sweets..
or even bring a piece of my clothes to ask mi to change and bring her out..
napping wit her in the afternoon..
watching tv in my room wit the aircon on..
she kissing mi jus becos she wanted my attention..
she look at mi and laugh out of a sudden jus becos she farted
or even when she wanted her milk, she climbed up on mi and cuddle in my arms to be pampered..
how long will that be able to happen..
my baby girl grown up..
some how, i misses her when she was a new born..
i hope she wouldnt grow up animore..
jus stay this way and i will look after her for the rest of my life..
pampering her, loving her and be happy tgt in a simple life like this..
to give her my best, i wouldnt even allow myself to rest till now..
to give her all the happiness, and i did it..
is been tough for mi..
but when ppl ask, i olways reply, "no"
when thing happen in work, i think about her or even stare at her picture in my phone, i smile and work hard..
i didnt know i can be like this...
didnt know i can love someone more then him..
my tears rolled down when i recall her growth..
the painful sight is he in her growth..
in the end, u still miss her growth..
in the end, dion is still without a dad..
working hard as a mum and a dad myself..
i have learned so much that ppl are impress wit a girl in her 20s can know so much about life..
everyday, i tell myself..
不开心，开心生活都要过。不如开开心心的过。
everyone around mi named mi superwomen..
they call mi cheerful girl..
they even respected mi as a women..
i am glad..
becos of dion, i am finally proud of myself..
is olways becos of her i grow up..
is onli, he missed both mi and dion growth in the end when we had a dream tgt..
i kept my words, to bring up dion as a clever and pretty and a adorable girl..
i kept my words to make u the last i ever love..
i kept my words to leave u completely..
i kept my words to allowed ur freedom..
and soon, i will do what i said..
leaving wit dion..
plans is made up..
soon gonna be a review to new life
i jus have to tolerate when dion turns 3..
and no one could find us except for my family..
and i will then be set free, free from all those memorize..
jus mi and dion, happily tgt..
xuemin