off today.. so i sent dion to skool myself..
of course, was late.. becos whole family overslept.. but i bring her to buy her medicine..
she is having flu and cough again..
maybe is reali my fault..
becos till now i haven consult a doc and i haven recover..
i couldnt stop myself from keeping a distance from her..
whenever i see her, i jus wanna hug her in my arms and kiss her..
becos i reali love her alot..
i treasure her like my heart..
i dote and pampered her and even love her more then i love myself..
i have been losing weight now adays..
my weight drop till 39.6kg now..
and now i feel so weak..
not becos i didnt eat..
one day a meal.. becos i don have appetite to eat more..
and due to my work load..
i don have the time..
it is reali been hard on mi lately..
my two new staff are a big problem to mi..
and dion is still sick..
and settling the problem wit dion's skool..
her skool in charge came personally to my hse to talk and share wit us about the accident..
and she gave dion best nest and a box of chocolate..
well..
at least i feel that dion is fine right now..
i don wanna make things big..
i jus wanna know that wherede dion is safe in the skool..
everything seems fine now..
dion still love goin skool..
the in charge says that dion is been a gd and big girl in skool..
she was the first 18 months student to start skooling for this yr..
and 2 weeks ago, there is a group more 18 months babies that join the skool..
keep crying and crying..
but dion didnt cry, she walk around the skool to pat on those babies that cry and sayang them..
hahahax..
teacher said, she has been a great help to them.. lmao!
i am glad that i have a baby princess like this..
although she is pampered, although she is stubborn..
but she has a kind heart..
like him..
is olways gd to have her by my side..
thou is tough, thou is tiring..
but i am really really happy..
i hope he knows that his daughter is such a wonderful girl that everyone love..
alot of ppl ask mi..
he use to have such a nice and pretty gf, why he don treasure..
is not up to mi to answer this question..
but i only has one question..
he had such a sweet and adorable baby princess, but why does he choose his own life when i gave him a choice wit dion too..
i may be harsh and cruel to him..
but intention was gd...
i jus wan him to be a gd daddy at least infront of dion..
well, it seems to be so tough for him..
dion skool fee 2 months is gonna pay up already..
plus dion insurance..
everything is about money..
hahax..
i don mind working hard for all these..
becos i am really happy..
work pass time so easily..
and now is gonna be july soon.. 4 more months, my baby princess gonna be 2yrs..
i wanna celebrate for her..
but this yr onwards...
he won be there animore..
sent dion to skool today, and walk to the bus stop to talk a bus..
and saw his hse..
i wonder what is he doin now..
actually, i really miss him alot..
flash back to us when we are tgt..
i nv love someone like this i guess..
don force mi to let go..
i cant..
reali..
to me, he is as important like her..
i might be like this till i die..
alot of ppl forcing mi to let go..
i lied.. lied to the whole world that i hate him..
but i don..
he is not a guy that jus being wit mi and broke up..
to mi, he change my entire world wit happiness..
even thou he wasnt by myside..
what he left mi was my entire life smile..
he mean alot to mi..
alot more then jus dion's daddy..
jus that he is nv gonna know..
becos i am nv gonna say this out animore..
to whoever, or even my family..
or even to princess..
i will jus love her jus like how much i love him..
the day i stop loving dion will be the day i stop loving him..
and that will nv gonna happen unless till the day i die..
i hope he is fine, alot better then mi..
i may be tied down wit stress and even work and my responsibility..
but i am living everday jus becos dion is here wit mi..
i took dion away from him, and gave him or rather returned him his brand new life..
i really hope, he is happy..
i lost everything now, except dion..
he has everything now, except dion..
is a fair game..
isnt it?
3 and a half hr more princess coming home..
hse is so quiet now..
hahax..
yes, she is very noisy..
i was thinking to ask dion's yeye and nainai out.. to eat wit dion..
they has been spending lesser time wit her now adays..
maybe on my next off day i guess..
thx for loving dion too...
i nv forget what u all done for her..
dion is a happy girl too..
becos she has everything except for a father..
everyone of us love her so much..
xuemin