and finally..
my body cant take the long hr of working, not enough slp..
and finally, my body telling mi that, i need to stop giving myself such a hard time..
very sick..
having high fever now..
headache, flu and vomiting..
left work early back home..
i nearly fainted at my vivo outlet..
the second time i took a cab home from there..
the first time was back to his hse..
drive through macdonals to pack his fav twister fries..
i thought of him along the way to keep myself awake and trying hard not to faint..
he was quiet useful this way..
i miss him..
the cab drop mi at the bus stop behind my hse..
and i am glad the next person i see was dad and dion..
dad was worried sick becos i reali reali had no energy..
i am reali glad i saw dion..
all pain sudden subside..
she smile to mi when she saw mi..
and called mi "mummy"
at least for the moment when he was in my mind, dion took the replacement..
she look so much like him..
i am very weak right now..
so couldnt have dion to slp by my side tonite..
fever came perhaps i was caught under the rain when i left office today..
and now, i can only say..
i am alone..
i don wan dion to get my virus, so mum carry her to her room tonite..
i somehow hope, he is here..
but that is impossible..
gd nite..
xuemin