is been a long time since i blog..
has been busy wit work..many many thing is happening lately to mi..
i am sick..
to the worst stage that even if i eat medicine olso useless..
hasnt been slpin well becos i am coughing all the while..
well..
and best part is, dion is having a high fever..
hopefully she will gets better..
becos this coming 27th she will be having her last jab. and i hear the fever will be worst..
donnoe will she be able to take it anot..
hmmm..
having alot of trouble lately..
hmmm..
work.. many thing to do..
and i am so tired..
somehow worrying about dion..
is my fault that i gave her such a weak body..
so all money spent on her..
i jus wan her happi and safe..
she is starting skool next month..
and i am taking leave jus to accompany her to skool..
i cant wait for that day to arrive..
had a bit of argument wit her dad again..
why has us become like this..
why has our communication become so bad..
why is u behaving this way now..
i donnoe who are u anymore..
i wanted to talk to u nicely..
but if u cant think positively, i cant talk to u..
i am sick, i am tired..
and worried about dion..
why have u stop understanding mi..
i don need anithing..
i jus wan a peaceful life wit dion..
i don like quarreling wit u..
i hate to quarrel..
i cant see why we can nv be tgt animore..
becos we don trust, don understand and don love each other animore..
and it make mi realize that u are olways at the mindset..
i don blame u..
jus my own luck for knowing u when u are playful..
i olways thought i am the one controlling the game..
but..
till today, i realize..
is olways u..
i am tired..
gonna eat my medicine and head to bed..
2 more days to off day...
i jus can say..
i am loving dion every sec..
she is growing up so much..
and every single part of her, remind mi of him..
not the one he is now..
but the one i am in love deeply wit..
the one who look mi in the eyes and tell mi he love mi..
the one who is stood by mi when i need him..
the one who hug mi in the night telling mi he needs mi..
she was a sweetheart like him..
she is like every sweet sms he sent to mi in the past..
seeing her i will smile like i am reading his smses..
well..
that makes them one..
not the him now who love himself..
but he nv knows..
nv gonna know that he was the one who change the life of us three..
xuemin
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