later in the afternoon, we are gonna meet..
but he change all my plans jus becos he has no time..
i wanted to go glen to find doc lee..
to find nurse iris who took gd care of mi
and then either head for a movie or go to vivo city to walk walk..
i understand he said that he has to work..
i understand that he has to help his dad in the company at 6pm..
but can he understand how sad and disappointed i am?
i plan all this becos i wanted to leave him without regretting that there will be things still undone..
this is suppose to be the last time i join him and dion out as a family..
this is suppose to be happy family day..
this is suppose to be the last time i wanna see him..
so end up, jus go for the movie will do..
i don feel like meeting animore..
but dion has already know that her daddy and mummy is bringing this princess out..
i cant break promise to dion..
so i have no choice..
i don wan this to drag..
i don wan thing to continue like this..
becos it reali hurt mi alot..
the painful part is i love u, i have u by myside but i couldnt hug u animore..
u won be able to understand right?
i hope some one is there to teach mi how to stop being a fool..
someone who scolds mi becos i am dumb..
i am a cheerful girl, but that doesnt mean i can take hurts..
i smile that doesnt mean i am strong..
i couldnt cry.. becos i am a single mum..
i have to force myself for the smile out becos dion is there looking at mi as a role model..
what she sees in her mum will be what she becomes..
helplessly, aimlessly.. i jus know i have to work hard for dion..
but what about myself?
ever since i become a single mum..
i have to give up everything i love and like for dion..
dion, pls be nice to mi when u grow..
and know that mummy love u alot..
my life will be very prefect if i won have to choose from them two..
no matter what..
i jus wanna say..
i am tired of loving u already..
i jus wanna leave..
at least i won feel so hurt..
xuemin