i had bad days in work recently..
being a management in a company is tough..
especially when ur jobs in delicated in between ur boss and staff..
i shouldn be so close wit all staff..
i should have a fine distance as a supervisor wit them..
so at least they won take mi for granted..
and things might be much easier when i can be able to have a better say..
i have the right but i lost the ability when they find mi so nice person to talk wit..
but not animore i guess..
i wanna prove to be a better person to be on my post..
and no one will be able to do a better job then mi..
at my age being a supervisor, i think i am capable enough..
things are just getting tough when promotion jus started and i have tons of things to do in everyday till july i guess..
suppose to take leave next month to acc dion to skool..
but staff took leave despite knowing i needed it..
but in my position, i have no way to leave my job like this like them...
felt so apology to my princess..
i am sry baby..
but i will be taking my leave on june..
is still consider early to start..
her skool left her a place ever since i paid for the register fee...
and maybe big reason due to her dad family's..
i am jus being sry that i couldnt spend more time wit dion..
i wanted to change job jus becos i have no time wit her..
but i couldnt bear wit my job now..
becos i am in love wit it..
will dion forgive mi?
but i love her more..
is contradicting..
what can i do to make things balance up..
jus my work and dion, i am losing my control..
dion, mummy is sry..
i jus wanna try to earn more money as u are still young and it will make our life easier in future..
can u bear it wit mummy for a few yr to gain back what i lost?
i wanna us emy own hands again to mark a gd start in retail line..
the type of job i love..
and even i will force myself hard a few yrs later, to be in an office in future..
i will do it for u..
daddy and mummy doesnt have time for u..
daddy is even busier when he has two jobs..
even is not becos of u he is working like this..
but at least i am sure, he gave u the best like i did..
no one was taught to be a gd parents..
but at least daddy and mummy trying very hard to give u what we can..
i spent all the leftover time wit u whenever i can..
helping daddy to cover more of his duties too..
daddy aint getting ani younger..
he should do what he like now till he feel tired..
5 more yrs and he will be in his 30s..
mummy will onli be 25..
and u will be 6yr old..
i promise by then, i will listen to u more to how u feel and what u reali like..
mummy will bring u to overseas for a holiday..
i will do what it takes to make u happy and comfortable..
u are my onli princess.. my onli baby..
my onli love..
mummy love u alot alot alot..
seeing u slowly slp and being pampered by mi, i couldnt make myself stop patting u..
i know u love mummy to pat u..
scratch ur back and even kiss u..
whisper into ur ears telling u mummy and daddy love u..
till u felt deep aslp beside mi..
and i hug u to lala land..
this is the happiness i ask for..
even daddy not by ur side, i hope u do feel that he love u alot too..
cos right now, mummy felt his love too..
he might not know how to show it to us telling us how much he love dion..
daddy is not gd in showing his love..
but mummy know exactly how to guess him..
and mummy feels him..
mummy feel him smiling to the picture i sent him of u..
mummy feels him when he thinks when he hugs u and u smile to him or even ur tiny hands wrap by his huge hands..
hope u understand daddy had his life too..
gd nite baby princess..
gd nite daddy..
xuemin