jus came back from breakfast wit dion and mum and my brother..
i like to spent my lil lil time wit dion like this..
she is slping now as she woke up at 7am..
well..
i am having a bad flu..
sneezing and running nose is very bad thing..
no choice..
my leg is still painful..
as i didnt get to see the doctor last week..
had to rush to get dion new name done..
3 more day to 6 more days her new name will be out..
and i will be seeing him in law firm to get things done..
3 more days to my bday..
in yr 2009, i had my bday spent wit him..
and ir mb we had a small quarrel. becos he is jealous..
i was chatting wit a guy which is consider my brother in msn..
and he said i left him out..
and i wanted to cancel the bday celebration..
he walk out of my hse..
but i chase him.
i cried saying sorry and he hug mi..
he ask mi to get prepare and we head off..
at that point of time we are both so immature..
getting angry wit such small thing..
but this is part of the sweetest memorize he left mi..
i treasure them..
in 2009 march he gave mi the best bday present i ever received..
despite losing baby jayken...
he gave mi my sweetheart now..
although i had lost him forever..
but i still will thx him for giving mi a princess..
in case he donnoe..
i love dion like how i love him..
i love them both..
this yr he gave mi my bday present of allowing mi to change dion surname..
i put him in a difficult position..
i don think he told his parents about it..
i am sry to them..
as they are reali nice to mi before..
but is as important to mi..
i don wanna hurt anione..
i jus wan her surname back..
i don wanna quarrel wit him..
i hate quarreling wit him..
when we are both tgt, we seldom quarrel..
but when we are not tgt..
we are olways quarreling..
is my giving in not enough or my tolerance is not gd enough..
i donnoe..
since i had dion, i haben eat lollipop..
and it caught my eye and i bought two small stick home..
mi and him love lollipop alot too..
or becos i love them and he like snatching wit mi..
we will olso compare whose turn out smaller and he olways snatch mine and exchange becos his lollipop is finishing..
and now turn out..
our princess jus did the same thing as him..
she see mi eating lollipop, she jus snatch from mi and eat..
i like being bully by them..
is so funny when she look and feel like him..
so many many thing she do remind mi of him..
i am glad that i didnt lose him completely..
thx u mr poh junde..
i may feel lonely without u..
but i have dion..
u two are the motivation to make mi stronger..
u two cures my heart from being sad..
is only when i lose u to this stage and i realize ur importance to mi.
but it doesnt matter..
becos everything ended long ago..
i couldnt do anithing..
except missing u..
this time, u might be still n bed..
and is raining now..
which means it is gonna take u a lil longer to wake up..
till ur parent press the call up to ask u to go down to eat ur lunch..
and then after ur heavy lunch, smoke and watch tv..
and fall aslp on ur bed..
till evening wake up and head out to work..
i can only imagine..
i can only guess..
but i think things might have change if u had someone beside u..
i donnoe..
i love u alot..
xuemin