i help a blind man down a escalator jus now..
jus becos i was afraid that he might fall..
and no one is there to help..
i find it very cruel and realistic when everyone walk a distance away from him..
what is all Singaporean doin?
the world has change and become so fuckin heartless..
is a basic manners to allow pregnant and even elderly to have a seat in the train...
but what i see everyday is the other way round..
no wonder everyone will be punish..
i guess, jus becos the world did so many wrong things..
and it cause us to die earlier..
i am not afraid of death..
i am jus afraid that i couldnt see dion grow..
i am afraid that it is gonna be cruel to her too..
everyone spreadin the news of world ending..
if things were to come..
it will happen..
live to the fullest.
cherish ur love ones..
and most important, don do regretful thing..
recently i am having a very tough day..
in work, at home or even wit everyone...
i have so much to rant..
but i don reali want too..
i jus tolerate everything till i am sick and tired..
and while thing in my home, i will jus wait till HDB approve to my rented..
and all..
i wanna move out as fast i could..
i am olways a brave girl..
and i am sure, i will tolerate all even now..
i have to wait till 21st yr old..
i jus wan a peaceful life wit mi and dion only..
no more on them..
anione else..
jus get out..
i am gonna count dion character to change her name on wed..
book an appointment wit wang shi fu..
but i am scare, he will pop out during this few days to mess mi up..
pls don..
i don wanna receive ur sms..
not now maybe..
or i too hope, i nv will gonna see ur sms again..
i donnoe why..
thou i still love u..
but i reali wish so much that u and ur family can stop appearing infront of mi and dion..
at least, is not gonna be so tough for mi to move on without u..
at least this complication won confuse dion about her parents..
my sweetheart is a clever girl..
but i can onli say, everything ties mi down..
including u..
i sent u 4 of u and dion pics last 2 days..
but i think nth else more worth our conversation to start again..
i wanna rest..
i need a rest..
even my leg..
is still fucking hurting mi..
but no one knows..
i am stressing my right leg to stand and balance well jus becos my left leg is useless..
and i have to stand for more then 12 hrs everyday..
walkin a long distance..
and my staff call mi early in the morning to take MC
despite my doc ask mi to take mc and rest for 1 week..
my job won allow mi to do so..
i couldnt blame them..
becos human tends to think for ownself before others..
so i think i should learn to be like them..
xuemin