i donnoe what is love till i lost u forever..
i had this sentence mention in my fb..
and is true..
i don treasure u when u are by my side..
i should have been more forgiving..
i should have been more understanding..
and he will love mi more i guess..
i jus miss him alot..
but things are back to normal..
back to those days that i miss him wit a smile..
back to the days that we bring dion out tgt..
back to onli mi looking after dion again..
he is busy i know..
but does he knows that mi and dion jus miss him so much..
well, nth i can do..
so many things happen lately and all is still making mi think about him...
tupid!
i am calling myself..
hahax.
i am studying real hard for my FTT test..
and i wish to have a pass..
i read the advance book 2 times..
and i will still read over and over again till i rmb all..
9 more days to my bday and FTT test..
hope i am not drunk on 22nd night..
if not i think i won be able to pass..
despite so hard i wanna study..
i think about him..
i rmb there is once, i had a small argument wit him..
and i told him i wanna go have a drink wit my gf...
and my mum asked him to my hse to eat dinner..
before he came, i left my hse..
but i was sick at that time..
and my mum told him, i onli wore a singlet and short..
so he went into my room, took my jacket..
and bring it to the pub and he head back to his hse..
i couldnt stop loving him..
jus becos of all these thing he did to mi..
he use to love mi alot..
but his ego don allow him to spell it out..
he is silly boy, while i become stupid when he is beside mi..
it s painful, a lil i guess..
when i think of us..
does he reminisce this lil lil past..
i did..
but i am only hurting myself..
so much of love but i felt tired..
how is it become like this..
i reali wanted to love him..
but is time..
to let go..
i said this for fucking so many many times..
but nv i succeed..
can i this time round?
should i change my number to avoid him..
should i block him in fb so he couldnt even find mi..
should i jus turn my back against him from now on..
idk..
how would i be able to do all this..
can i pls him not to make mi suffocate?
can i tell him that i am suffering like this..
he won understand this..
working tires mi down..
as my leg has to be on bandage till wed for a 2nd consultation..
doc say my toe is fracture..
and i still have to walk and stand..
doc advise mi to rest..
but i had no choice when my staffs are giving mi problem when my manager is on leave..
well.. i jus need dion to cheer mi up..
gonna rest and hug her tml morning..
i reali think my baby princess is so awesomely adorable..
lolx..
and she has 10 pairs of shoes now..
as my dad bought her 1 new one when she says she wants..
nice one!
hahahahax..
she jus have to nod her head to get things she loved..
becos she is a princess of chin's and poh's..
her grandparents came to see her and spent their precious time to talk to dion..
play and sing wit her..
and i think dion is the happiest baby ever..
xuemin