i donnoe what i wanted...
i can no longer join back into my frenx life when they are out almost everyday to chill..
whenever i am, i left my heart at home wit dion..
at work and all, i jus miss dion..
and now, i thought i am able to put him out as mentioned..
but after the two freakin days..
everything is fucking messed up again..
can anione teach mi what is the faster way to forget him..
i am so sick and tired..
don reali know what i am living for now..
didnt i tell myself dion is the only person i have to care..
i am so tired till i reali wanna take a break now..
i wanna try not to contact him even if he trys to ask about dion..
i wanna try to ignore him..
i hope i am able too..
i donnoe, reali donnoe..
the whole world knows that i love him, he himself will nv get to know..
baby jayken 2 yrs death anniversary..
mummy love u too baby..
i nv once forget about u too..
i love u deep..
xuemin