i am back blogging..
there is nth to update actually..
work is stressful and work is tiring..
i am really busy recently over work..
till i have no time for dion..
i hope i am not neglecting her..
i still wake up early in the morning to wait for her to wake up from her beauty slp and kiss her..
and most importantly..
i will spend at least half an hr playing wit her before i rush out to work..
work seems to come first recently..
i have no choice..
work overloading..
i hope i have more time for her..
but earning money is important too..
if i were to get an office job..
she won be able to have the best..
maybe when i get my license and i have a car to drive..
can start working an outdoor sales at least...
and higher pay then retail sales..
my experiences in sales won be ani lesser..
shall see how ba..
mum is sick and i felt guilty for not being able to stay at home to help her look after my princess..
after tml, on sat i have a off..
but 3.30pm till 5pm i am having my first driving lesson..
i cant believe i am learning driving!
hahahx..
the first person i wanna drive is dion..
hahax..
then daddy poh have to give mi back the car seat for her..
we buy for her but the usage of the car seat is less then 5 times i think..
lolx
but have to get a new one for her if i reali get my car..
hopefully asap..
burden is higher but at least i won be so tired..
hopefully i will be able to earn more..
hope my boss give mi more increment..
lolx..
my twin sis went to Bangkok for a holiday wit her husband and mother in law..
hope she enjoy and rmb to buy mi baggsss..
lolx..
she is coming back maybe 2nd? but my elder sis said she will be back only on 3rd?
lolx..
most importantly, this is her first trip out wit their baby in her tummy..
i miss being pregnant..
i miss dion kicking mi..
and i miss daddy poh hugging mi to slp wit his hands on my tummy..
dk wherede i get a chance to go through pregnancy again..
but i will treasure dion more..
becos no matter what is my future is, i have her by my side..
i am contented...
i love her calling mi mama..
i love her kissing mi..
i love her when she climb on mi to ask mi pat her while watching tv..
i jus love pampering her..
i nv regret..
having her but losing him..
becos he is gonna be grateful one day that my decision is right..
maybe he knows i wasnt wrong bringing dion out but he jus didnt wanna mention it as his tupid ego is olso very high..
we are both like this and turns out to be a tragic..
time passes like this and i knew i cant behave this way..
i am no longer suitable to even talk about rs..
i am not like other immature girls casting baby aside when they have a bf..
at least dion has my whole attention..
my baby girl is starting skool in may..
and i hope daddy poh can take leave wit mi to acc her for the first few days in skool..
aniway her skool is jus right opposite his hse..
he might jus go back "awhile" to take a nap..
lolx.. and throw mi there alone..
so better don la..
i wanna bring dion to swimming..
i wanna bring dion to shop again..
i wanna bring dion to go play again..
so many many things is still undone..
or time isnt right at all..
lolx..
i am rushing dion growth alot..
i am anxious about her next step..
but dion is a clever intelligent baby girl..
mus be like mi..
becos daddy poh stupid..
next yr on my 21st bday i wanna bring dion to holidays..
hopefully daddy poh can join..
will ask him..
but nvm if he doesnt wan.. becos i will have lots of fun wit dion:)
i hope he don miss dion growth animore..
hope he gets to be there in dion "first time"
first time goin skool..
first time goin holidays..
and i am sure if both of us are ther for dion in her growth..
at least she will be happier..
i am consider a single mum.. but dion is still a baby wit her both parents..
but all frenx and my family is right..
should find a gd guy and settle down since i am still young..
don lock myself up becos of him..
if i meet the right one..
if i meet the gd guy..
if i am able to meet a guy that is gonna accept dion..
and his parents are okie wit mi having a baby girl..
if i am able to meet a guy who love mi like how much i love him..
if i am able to meet a guy that make mi forget about him..
i will move on without him..
i won go around finding guys to be my next bf...
becos i rather hope that kinda of guy don exist..
i wan daddy poh..
i only wan him..
he is that kinda of guy that i met earlier in dec 2008..
he is that guy i wanna be wit him forever..
if he doesnt get married, i won give him up..
he wans mi to forget him, show mi he is gonna be happi forever first..
i don need a guy by my side..
i only need dion..
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