wanna blog before i eat my med and head to bed..
still have to work tml..
but i am having cough, running nose and fever..
head feels so heavy..
but i still wanna say.
i love dion, and him..
i felt so useless, not be able to do what i said..
but at least, i am reali letting go of our memorize..
he msg mi again to ask when is my next off so we could bring dion to zoo..
i wanna see him, i wanna at least see him smile again..
i didnt even look at him when i brought dion to his hse on the first day of cny.
and i regret..
i am chasing after him all the time..
but suddenly, when i was about to give up.
i realize he is as important to mi..
even if our distance is that far..
he is jus another dion to mi..
another baby jayken..
another mi..
other then him, i am nv gonna fall in love again..
till i grow old and die, i am gonna still be like this i guess..
i couldnt even take a gd look at guys beside mi..
i couldnt even feel for someone i know who love mi..
but all i could say, i am sry..
becos he is bury deep down in mi..
even he might not know, i will still love him like how i fall for him in the first place..
he mend my broken heart before he came into my life..
i could only say, he is irreplaceable..
wtf am i doin?
haix..
idk..
i mus be firm enough..
jus becos i wanted dion surname to be changed..
i reali wan it back so much..
dion is getting better..
but now is my turn..
i wanna tell baby princess, u are gonna be the one and only..
mummy love u alot alot...
u are slping now..
and i wanna join into ur beautiful dream..
places wit u is gonna be fun and enjoyable..
a home wit u is a home wit laughter and smile..
just rmb, no matter what is gonna happen in future,
mummy will be the person who will be there for u..
i don wish to see u cry.
i don wanna see u fall..
i don wanna even see u upset..
i know i am over protecting u..
but u are all i have in this world..
no one is gonna understand mi more then u now..
when u know mummy needed a hug, u will allow mi to lie on ur small leg and touch my hair..
all i wan is u..
all i need is u..
is enough wit u around..
xuemin