a short post before i head to bed..
elder sis borrowed my lappy becos of her skool work..
so i have to use our desktop to blog..
couldnt upload my beautiful nails done by sharen:)
i love it..
i had a 3D art wit ribbons..
thx sharen:)♥
cny is two days away..
everybody seems to be cny mood..
i guess part of mi too..
i have to work..
onli be off on the 3rd and 4th..
so well..
nth i can do..
saving up my leave to spend wisely..
dion and mi is getting closer..
and i realize i reali reali couldnt stop thinkin of her..
have to work so no choice..
this comin cny, i don intend to go up his hse to bring dion to visit them..
i think this will stop..
i reali don wanna give in animore..
thou i gave my words that i will add his infomation in dion childcare..
but i don think i would wan this time round..
i wanna use my own ways to bring up dion..
i wanna show him that we don need him to act so noble and claiming he love her..
if jus as he says, he don wanna pay...
and i will make him lose everything then..
i won wanna protect him animore like his parent..
he is no longer a somebody to mi...
and i wannna let him out of my heart this time round..
i think i can..
for most of the reason, i am telling myself this time round..
i reali wanna be free..
even from his parents..
is not a revenge..
is jus a path of ending this complicated love and letting go of someone i love alot more then myself..
that shall be the best thing for us..
and i guess..
i no longer wanna turn back to look at him animore..
i hope he don force mi to bring him to court..
i jus wanna have my say this time round..
so dion and mi can be happi till she grows..
i will choose to change dion surname when i turn 21..
and that will be the best present i had for myself to my adulthood..
and i think the best part of mi and him is still a memorize..
i don wanna stay at that memorize animore..
becos maybe i am too naive...
thinkin of one day he will change..
but he nv will animore..
is my regret that i failed to have the one i use to love back..
but at least i tried..
in a rs, there is no right and wrong...
but it shows how much he or shes means to u by ur heart..
i nv regret meeting him 2 yrs ago..
i nv regret being wit him..
i nv regret having to have dion out...
i nv regret i leave him..
but i think i will regret that becos he wasnt meant for mi..
i jus wanna lead my life wit dion and start a brand new yr..
and i hope he can stop torturing mi..
i took up the key and open the door in my heart to let him out..
and no more mi and him..
only dion princess and mummy xuemin..
i will play the best part as a mum and dad for dion..
a dad workhard and earn money for the family..
and a mum take gd care of the family..
i will play two big roles now..
at least dion don feel empty like mi..
i don mind being lonely..
i don mind being alone..
but seeing dion sad make mi unbearable..
i don wanna spoil her dad gd image in her..
so i will try to avoid dion misunderstanding..
at least she won get to see her dad wit another women..
and i won wanna her that kinda affair ..
rs to mi become so useless..
all i wan is my precious baby princess dion:)♥
xuemin