reach home and went into mum room to see dion..
she wasnt aslp..
but seems tired..
so wanted to pat her..
but my mum, for fuckin reason, she keep sayin i wake her up..
and dad was waken up by mum voice and scolded her..
ask her frenx not to call her at nite from now on..
obviously, it wasnt my fault..
but all the blame came to mi jus becos i wanted to see dion..
i carry dion to my room..
then sing to her to pat her slp...
but mum jus come in and make noise..
like wth?
dion wanna slp rite!
cant i even spend this bit time wit dion..
and yes, she carry her out..
and left mi there crying..
is so difficult to spend my time wit her around tryin to spoil mi and dion rs..
is it jus becos she dote on dion dad?
no matter what, if it was dion dad, he will nv get scolded..
but do i deserve it?
i work harder then him..
i nv allow myself to fail to be a mum..
but why has it be mi ended up as a nobody?
i reali don wanna live in a hse wit her.
no matter how hard i give in, she is another him..
take for granted and askin for more..
why do i have a mum like her..
wth is all this..?
he reali didnt know how much he ruined my life..
my family and my happiness..
a guy chat wit mi ystd nite..
he told mi that my revenge plan wasnt gd enough..
asking him for money is too easy for him as his family is rich..
he said i should have be more firm and be nasty to him..
but what is the point i doing all this..
i jus wan dion surname to be back to mine..
if he agree, everything will solve peacefully..
but he and his family don even dare to reply my sms..
i should consider goin to his hse this comin sunday...
and make them no choice but to give mi an answer..
haix..
i am so tired to their acting..
act to be nice, to succeed in their motive..
act naive but they are not..
act to be a nice person and make mi the bad one..
when they themself should know how they ganged up to pull mi down..
well..
either they give mi an answer or a reply..
if not i will take initiative..
i have plenty of time recently..
next month olso..
i wan things to end soon..
now pulling the string is still them..
and this is how weak they are..
well..
no point saying so much..
he should know that dion means more then anithing to mi..
he is gonna be the one who make dion suffer the most..
xuemin