nth much to update recently..
work has been smooth..
dion is still fine after her 15months jab..
as crunky as usual..
but as adorable:)
she started to pick up phone call from mi..
and say "hello", "bye" and "see you"
awww.. so happy:)
my baby girl grow up le..and she is learning fast..
well.
mummy is so proud of ur growing up:P
i couldnt stop smiling when i hang up the call wit her..
and she counted 1-10 wit mi again..
lolx
i am reali glad..
i nv regret insisting of wanting her to be out..
a single mum is not tough..
but my life will be tougher without her..
had sent an sms to dion's granddad
a long one i guess..
Uncle, 听我妈妈说你要帮我的女儿跟你开一个联名户口。
抱歉。我的孩子有我在帮她存钱。
请你们打消念头。不要在一直说是为她好。给你们看她和她相处是我可以让的最 后一步。
不要在想什么有的没的。拜托。
我的孩子的事请您们不要在插手。
否责，不要怪我没有为你们两个老人家想。
不用想找我姐姐谈，因为只要我家人帮你们， 我就把孩子带出这个家。
请你们不要破坏我的家。
孩子是我的，不要介入你们不该介入的界限。
还有，记得你们有跟我说过不在乎孩子跟谁姓。
我现在想要孩子跟我 姓。所以希望您能谅解。
我为孩子付出的步只是你们所谓的钱。而是你们永远都步能给她的全部。
不好意思，知道这么说很不礼貌。
但是我想要回原来属于我的东西 不过分吧。
我不会阻止你们看我的孩子。
请你们好好考虑。
同样的，将心比心想。身为一个父母，最大的幸福就是看这孩子健康快乐的成长，
不会想我的宝贝上学的 时候给朋友笑，说爸爸妈妈没在一起因为她。
因为很明显的事，是你儿子不能做一个好爸爸。
所以我决定一个人承担两个人的工作。做个好妈妈和爸爸陪她成长。
希 望你们能自持我的决定
。我还会希望孩子的爸爸能够给她多一点的时间。
但是，很多事情我想一个人做主。
还是在请你们将心比心为我想最后一次。
谢谢你们。考虑 好了让我知道。
well, i guess..
is kinda a very true feeling of mine..
said out from the bottom of my heart..
and i know everything gonna end soon..
and of course..
i sent dion dad a facebook sms..
he avoid my first msg..
he didnt wanna reply when i ask him to consider changing dion surname..
so sent the second one..
don have to avoid my msg de.. i understand why u are afraid of mi.. becos u are scare that i tell u that u cant be a gd dad.. but the fact is, u are still unprepare to give up and love dion unconditionally.. u still wan ur life.. have u ever wonder, how much can u give up becos of dion.. no matter how much i were to tell u.. u will still choose the same way to lie that u love her..i wanna believe u, but what u shown is olways the other way round..
i sms ur dad ystd nite already..
so i guess, if u don wanna talk about changing dion surname..
i will find ur parents to talk about it..
sry to bother u..
but i kinda hate the fact that in dion's there is a part of ur blood..
enough of ur lies..
well..
i meant it this time..
i reali felt so sick of his lies..
i think and realize..
even without them, dion will be a happier girl..
no matter how much ppl were to tell mi..
is better to let her know her dad..
but her dad is useless as he love himself..
will that cause dion alot more hurt?
the answer is yes..
rather then hurting her slowly, i wish this end..
i can only cry wit her one day if things happen..
becos i fail to be a mum to protect her..
no matter how ppl wanna criticize mi..
i am evil, i am cruel..
to the pohs..
but my only intention was to protect dion and myself more..
why wanna give dion so many question to ask herself..
so i decide that i will nv lie to dion..
i don wanna help him to save that face of being a "gd daddy"
nor his parent..
how i was treated when they say they understand how i feel but wans mi to tolerate their precious son..
ask him to talk to his son, he told mi i wanna make them fall out..
lolx..
i couldnt blame them..
a parent olso will stand by children..
but not my mum..
i wanna bring dion up independently..
so even if they don wanna agree to change the surname..
i have my plan..
will go up to court and i will take a monthly maintenance from him..
and it will be alot more then now..
and he will put it into my account every month..
so he don have ani excuse to come up to see dion..
so my first plan is out being a nice lady..
they willing to change, i let them continue see dion..
if not, don blame mi..
and second, they don wan.
go court and they nv get to see dion again..
till dion turn 14 yrs old, i will bring dion to change her surname without his consent..
he is not needed by then..
but i will still make sure he pay for the debt he owe mi..
i don wanna be nasty to him..
but since, i decide to stop loving him, i won be nice to him animore..
hope they consider properly..
i have plenty of time to play nasty wit them..
jus scare they don have enough yrs to tolerate mi..
14yrs only, and i will be only 34 yrs old..
her dad will be nearly 39 yr old..
her granddad will be 70 yrs old..
and gd thing is he will be having a family by then but still paying a huge amount to dion..
don think he is able to survive..
but is not my problem..
is their choice...
i gave them a chance to choose..
call mi a bitch, i will do that too..
no matter what..
they are frankly left wit no choice..
mr poh, ur intelligent can nv gonna win mi..
jus give up ba..
u are not my match at all..
even ur frenx around u are tupid enough..
they only teach u to do thing without brains..
and all of the same age are still acting that they are capable but still immature in fact..
noone will stop mi now..
becos i started this plan..
i know i will have to tolerate for 14yrs..
but i empty my tolerance again..
start all over again and it began now..
if u don wanna agree, i will jus suffer for 14yrs..
but u, will be forever till u die..
if u remember mi, my tolerance level is high..
so what ur family is rich..
but nv can they fight against laws and mi..
becos u are consider a adult..
and law will only take consideration on both of us.. not ur family animore..
maybe i still can take out my family still..
as i am still under 21..
so that is the first step that u have lost to mi..
i suggest u play smart..
wanna ask mi why i wanna be so nasty?
easy..
i jus wan dion surname change...
off day today..
bringing dion out..
waiting for her to be awake..
well..
wanna go grab a bite..
i am starving..
xuemin