i am strong enough to bring dion up as a single mum
but i am not strong enough when it comes to him and dion
dion holds up my phone and calls out for her dad..
my tears rolled down lookin at dion..
she is so naive, she innocent..
and i gave her a tight hug and a kiss on her forehead..
i felt the pain..
the pain that even dion knows how to miss her daddy..
but her daddy didnt even bother to give her even 5 mins of his time now..
i sent him msg in fb..
i told him that dion wanna talk to him..
if he too wanna talk to dion, give mi a call..
he didnt call as i predict..
dion is olways the limelight in our family..
in his world, dion still wasnt the everything..
even one day, i might bring dion away..
he won feel..
but to dion, mi and him is her world..
without us, she won be able to be here..
so when dion sees ppl acting to beat mi..
she crys and trys to pull the person away..
we meant it as a joke, but i see how much dion love mi and my mum..
i don understand, why dion at this age of 15months, knows what is love and treasure..
but him?
i don wanna beg him to give dion more attention..
i don wanna please him to allow dion to see him..
becos nth is gonna make him come all over her to meet her or even call up..
he wans mi to give him 1 day of time on 1st or 2nd week in march to bring dion out to zoo..
so if i don wanna go, when will be the next time he come and see dion?
seeing dion like this, i feel like takin a knife and cut my wrist once..
but this only harm myself..
and i will be giving dion more hurt..
but what can i do?
i donnoe..
mr poh junde, could u teach mi what to do this time round..
u selfishly wanted dion to be in ur life..
but u nv shown ur love to her..
if that is the case, return mi dion surname..
and i will take up all responsibility..
at least everytime dion call out to mi..
everytime she is sick, i am olways here for her..
she is having a fever now..
she has been coughing and running nose for 2 weeks..
do u even care or knows about it?
haix..
xuemin