realize that i have been running out of energy..
what do i need exactly to be a gd mum and a gd supervisor in work..
dion is likely to have a slight fever..
i feel it before she go over to her dad hse today..
i reali wonder why, why is dion health that bad?
perhaps, the main reason is on mi..
i feel heartache..
that i couldnt do anithing to stop dion from suffering..
i feel useless when dion turn crunky and whine..
but relief becos she will only wants mi to be wit her whenever she is not well..
she will only wants to be carry by mi..
despite how tired my hands are today after a spring cleaning wit mum in house work..
i carry her as long like nearly an hr straight..
i asked myself?
is that all u can do?
is that the best?
i wanted her out..
not to see bad thing happening to her..
but i reali dk why..
my princess, my baby girl..
mummy love u..
i reali reali love u..
i am abit piss when dion'dad mum cut her fringe for her without askin my permission..
it took so long for dion hair to be long..
and finally i can tie her hair and doll her up as a lil princess..
especially cny is comin..
i reali wanna make dion look pretty enough..
but no point saying so much when things are done..
is nth serious aniway..
but suddenly, i reali don feel respected at all..
shouldnt they take an effort to ask for my permission?
shouldnt they least know how i feel?
even how much i were to tell them, they seems to do things that the like still.
at least for now, dion dad is not wit them..
dion dad has been working hard nowadays..
he has a job himself..
and finishes his work and head to help his dad in company...
i reali wonder..
is it true?
becos i have nv seen that hardworking him..
babydion should be lucky that her dad start to understand the importance of kinship jus becos of her...
becos he nv ever had treasured anione like this before..
including mi, i guess..
gd nite world..
nite dion dad and baby girl:)
xuemin