rant abit before i go to bed
abit upset and very angry by his words..
we had this quarrel..
or rather, small argument..
he wanted to include his name or one of his family members in dion childcare list..
and yes, afterall i gave in.
again..
but is not about this..
is mainly becos he said if his name wasnt in it, why mus he pay for dion childcare too..
and he too said, is dion having his surname so troublesome.
he don wan dion surname to be his already..
why is he like this..
what if dion is the one to hear this?
what if dion knows about it?
i olways wanted to protect his gd daddy image..
but have he not realize that what he did is hurting princess?
not matter what we adult are wrong..
princess is innocent isnt it?
he olways wanting things without putting effort..
and olways get what he wants..
suddenly, i reali wanna take dion away from here..
he should feel how does it feel when someone he love wasnt there..
if he didnt care, maybe he don love dion at all..
i feel so sick..
no matter how much i love him, the best giving in will stop if he ever hurt dion..
i won allow any one to hurt my precious princess...
i will nv allow anione to spoil dion happiness..
i hate to say, it include him..
i will do what it take to hurt him when dion is hurt..
i wanna rest.. but couldnt stop thinkin about it..
haix..
idk how to accept it..
no one teaches mi what to do..
alot of ppl says, i slim down alot again..
what can i do when i am losing appetite recently..
what can i do when stress and him..
what can i do when dion couldnt make mi smile like how she use to do recently..
becos all i wan is to cry..
no one knows..
i am forcing every part of mi to stop tearing..
i am a single mum..
i cant allow dion to see her mum cry..
i cant allow to fall..
i jus had to be like this..
there is no choice when reality is forcing mi to grow and stand firm..
i don even have the right to cry..
that is my life now..
xuemin