off today..
and brought baby dion and jun long to vivo for a walk..
had lunch at kim gary..
and it was a veri nice and awesome place..
do try their food, veri nice:)
had promise my brother that we will head to sentosa the next trip in jan when i am havin more time..
is olways that happi to see the younger ones grow up happi.
time is important i guess.
i love my brother.
i love dion..
and i love my family
alot of ppl sending mi private msg, or even msn mi
jus to tell mi they wish to be as strong as mi
i am not strong actualli..
jus tryin to put in 101% effort that ppl cant manage
especially when it comes to dion..
loving her dad and loving her become two different thing..
becos i wasnt affected at all..
it nv affect in my love for dion..
this is the thing that everyone mus understand..
doesnt mean i need his love in order to give dion the best..
dion don need a complete family to grow up happily..
that makes mi seems veri strong..
i cant fall..
becos if i fall, no one will be there to hold mi up..
and what if i fall, who will be there for dion?
i olways ask myself these few qn..
i am not strong..
becos i have my side of dependency..
is jus that, ever since he left mi, i nv showed others that side of mi..
he know best that i needed him alot..
jus like how he need mi alot too..
but thing past..
nth worth left to say..
i hope the other women out there will be thinking that far as mi..
don get affected by thing which tend to step on the soft side in u..
i cry sometime when i cant hold on..
but afterall, i smile as i grow up more..
i learn more after ever incident i been through..
different ppl has different life..
but jus rmb, don cheat, don lie or don betray..
i am missing him alot..
my younger sis is so into my rs life recently..
has been tryin to match make mi..
well..
i couldnt say, but i love him too much to move on without him..
so might as well wait till i am fully prepared then see how..
i jus wan dion in my life right now..
i am not ready for other thing except work and dion..
has been so sick of rs..
but if the person is him, might be different..
becos i will nv get sick of him..
he olways had such an important place in my heart like dion..
he is away for reservist
thou i know, thing won change..
i jus wanna know about him..
even thing that might hurt mi, i jus wanna know he is happier..
becos if he is not happi, i will regret letting him go..
but till now, at least..
he is..
mr poh junde..
we shall meet up for a final talk on jan..
as i told u in the sms..
call it a peaceful talk.
i don wan argument.
i jus have thing to say..
and lastly..
i wan u to leave..
leave dion.
and leave my life completely ever after..
i might be changing blog link..
jus feel like changing..
well..
gd nite..
xuemin