is quite tough for mi to move on isnt it?
blame myself for being useless defected by u..
the whole world jus didnt seems to pull mi down..
is olways u..
do u know that ur dad called mi ystd..
do u know that i cried to ur dad while talkin to him..
do u know how much i need u..
do u even hear my heart begging u to change..
do u even notice i am here..
u nv gonna know that i am still there back in the past waiting..
u nv know how much i wanted to tell u i didnt change at all..
i am jus acting strong..
but deep in mi, is still the one who loves u alot..
u claim that i have change..
but why didnt think of the reason that i have to behave in this manner..
if i am not like this now, if i am not as strong,
what do u think dion life will be?
if i am still gonna have ur heart back to mi, i will tell u that i am tired of acting strong..
i wanted to lean on u again..
but at this situation, even if i said, u will still choose to turn ur back against mi isnt it?
so why should i say?
u reali didnt know how much u mean to mi?
my life is like a miserable story..
it comes wit no happy ending..
becos u took my happiness away wit u when u left..
dion turn out to be my hope..
becos she is a gift from u..
i didnt give birth to this baby for u..
but i wanted her to be out becos i wanted our love to continue..
even we are not tgt..
i still will promise to bring dion up as a happi and lovely girl..
i will bring her up wit a smile i hope to see in u..
she is jus like u..
look so charming when u smile..
where u hide my junde..
i miss him..
u should be aware that all i wanna ask from u is only a man of word..
if things change? why didnt u try giving in?
since i am the evil woman who takes dion away..
like it be then..
i force u to grow, i am not ani better either..
i force myself a big way more then i force u..
believe it or not..
i am 100 times hard working then u could think..
this time round is all for dion..
what about u?
work still as tiring..
but yr end coming to an end..
i am sure my hard work will pay off..
3rd of jan, having new yr party wit company..
i nv allow my emotion to take over my work..
so i swear, i will have fun..
dion mummy love u alot..
i ask ur brother every nite before i slp..
to look after u when mum is in work and not around by ur side..
hopefully nitemare didnt hunt u..
and hopefully, u will be happi..
u have to, becos ur smile is every pieces of my hardwork..
i love u princes..
i reali do..
receive dion's granddad call ystd.
and i cried infront of dion..
she sat down quietly and watch mi..
till she hold my hand and touch my hand..
i calm down and kiss her..
how could i not pampered her?
how could i not love her..
i know she love her mum too..
becos i nv leave her alone..
xuemin