had a busy month in work..
and after tml, gonna be over..
today is the last day of my white sand outlet..
so tml i will be there early to close the shop..
and tml i will end work early:)
today goin town wit jayda and dion:)
i needa go shop for xmas present..
hasnt had the time to get..
cos west mall atrium was tiring..

i have to say,
thx to him..
the impact is too big..
some ppl will thinks, the way i treat him thou saying i still love him is ridiculous..
but i wanna take back what is rightfully mine..
and i wanna have my revenge..
thout i am reali tired..
don reali wan to do anithing right now..
work and work..
but one day..
i still have to face it
even his mum and dad..
they have to be punish somehow jus becos they treated mi like their own tools..
jus becos their responsibility, they money spent on my medical bill..
but psychically, they should go through what i been through..
she is a woman herself..
she should be able to stand by my side support mi more rather then telling mi to tolerate her son
wait till her daughter go through the same thing..
i will see who the god gonna punish..
my luck has olways been gd since young..
thou meeting him turns bad..
but now, is coming back..
i make it official that i will work harder the next yr to prove them wrong..
being a single mum wasnt tough..
becos there is more to come as dion grows..
but as long as dion is wit mi..
i will be happy and move on..
i will have to dump him out of my heart now..
not gonna find replacement..
becos he is too gd to be replace somehow..
i donnoe how long it gonna take mi..
but i will wan to try
since we met, he is olways in my heart..
2 yrs plus of loving him..
i need a long time..
i nv love a guy for that long..
at least i gave him my word to let him be the last in my heart

he souldnt left any footstep in my past
i jus love him too much..
i don mind loving him.. but he minds somehow..

chat wit a frenx jus now..
he ask mi the same qn..
can i give him a chance to be my bf..
i cant..
i told him i don wan to step into rs..
he feel hurt..
but still say sry to mi..
but i know he wasnt in fault
no one is in fault in rs...
becos love is blind..
maybe i am not the right one..
as i am a single mum..
i tried stop contacting him jus becos i thought he will let go..
but still,

wanna go rest before dion wake up and i wanna bring her out..
i reali love my life being single now..
jus wit dion i am blessed..

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