dion is walkin alot of steps now..
awwww...
i am so delighted..
so happi..
she walks towards mi steady enough..
and i will give her a big hug..
kiss her to tell her she did a gd job:)
baby princess, well done..
mummy so happi..
tears rolled down jus becos i see ur grow..
and finally..
everyday a different u..
i am still waiting..
waiting for u to run to mi and hug mi after work..
wait for mi to be back home to hug u to slp..

i am reali veri busy..
sometime jus feel so tied up..
but lucky thing.. i have dion..
work has been over loading..
and didnt stop comin..
promotion tied mi down..
staff tied mi down..
hiring, tied mi down too..
i need 7 part timers for my west mall in dec..
who is able to work during xmas day..
having 5 interview tml..
but my expection has to go abit lower, as i reali need ppl..
and alot of thing happening..
i am stress..
but still keep a smile on my face jus to make all my staff feel better..
i am not a bad supervisor who scolds them..
even if they did thing wrong..
i patiently talk to them..
receive their acknowledgment..
receive praises from bosses..
and it makes mi wanted to higher up my own expectation and hit a higher score.
i am scoring a 100 marks now..
in work and as a mum..
i wanna hit more then 100..
when other ppl cant be able to do it..
i am a women who wish to be a perfectionist..
to make sure no one look down on mi in the end..
i wanna be a capable mum..
and dion can proudly tell all her frenx in future that "my mum is a capable women"
jus becos i am a single mum, that doesnt make mi give up..
my mum frenx has been tellin mi to open a retail shop myself..
since i am so capable..
and my mum says, she will sponsor mi if she and dad has the money..
but i told her..
i wanted to start on my own..
and i wouldnt take granted of it..
i have alot to learn.
from my manager and boss..
they are beautiful..
they are even capable then mi..
becos they are much more older then mi and they gave mi chance to prove..
i olways have the luck, to meet nice ppl..
and gratefully..
i promise i will nv forget them..
my parents, my sisters.. my brother..
dion's grandparents..
i will repay them when i have the chance..
no matter what happen..
to mi, they are as important..
i am cautious, in making new frenx..
especially guys now..
guys said hi when i walk pass them..
guys walks towards mi..
and my reaction is olways ignore..
and i guess..
this time, i am all out for a better future, not for relationship..
even i might meet my ex bf outside..
i don think i will even smile to them ba..
my body grows..
my mind grows..
my soul moved on..
but onli my heart..
choose to stay right beside him..
ani girls out there who manage to be able to stay close to him..
pls help mi take real gd care of him..
he is stubborn in times..
but he jus wanted to be pampered..
he is sweet at times..
jus becos he wanted to be showered wit loves..
he is annoyed easily..
but all he wans is onli his own time for his games..
he is lazy..
jus becos he need someone who is hardworkin..
he don like looking after himself..
becos he wans ppl who is able to take gd care of him..
who is able to patiently fold his clothes..
who is able to patiently wake him up for work..
and who is patient enough to wait for him to come home..
i am sure nobody gonna do a better job then mi..
but i let go and he gave up too..
so i sincerely hope, someone can do a gd job too..
i olways rmb how he wanted to be treated like a baby..

smiling to slp soon..
so tired after work..
and tml long day again..
gd nite world..
gd nite baby dion and baby jayken..
gd nite pjd..


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