jus reach home..
off day but veri tired..
after blogging, i am heading out again..
jus bring dion out..
went to west mall to collect my stuff..
and then brought dion to visit her korkor..
i know i shouldent bring dion to that kinda places..
but i bring her to her brother to let him see her..
ask him to look after her as a angel beside her when mummy is in work or not around..
dion fall aslp..
so i had lil bit of time to talk to jayken..
bought him sweets and biscuit..
and milk..
telling him about my recent life..
i donnoe why, tears rolled down the mintue i said, i am still hanging on..
i have a feeling that jayken is olways by myside..
becos last 2 days, i had a fever..
i only rmb that i rolled on my bed and i felt a hand touching my forehead..
is in the middle of the nite..
and i feel a small lil warm hand..
idk wherede becos i am sick and illusion jus pop by..
but the feeling so real..
i nv wanted more then anithing..
not wealth and not a gd guy that stay beside mi..
i only want dion and if possible jayken by myside..
dion turning 1 soon..
jus now after the visitation, went cwp to look for mum and do abit of shoppin.
dion bought a new toys like everyday one..
lolx..
and her toys are stacking up for display..
lolx..
and bought her a new walking shoe to learn her first step..
and a new milk powder carrier..
next week on thursday, in lunar calendar is 28th..
which mark down to dion first chinese bday..
gonna do a mini celebration as i am off on wed..
wit family..
idk wherede to carry on wit the nov 14th celebration..
becos i reali have no time to prepare..
as my schedule are all packed..
mum told mi, since that is the case..
family jus go out to have a dinner..
gonna sign dion up to childcare..
as mum worry that my younger sis will get preg..
lolx..
so fast to wonder..
as she jus got married..
but hopefully, she can get pregnant soon and then dion will have a company to grow up wit..
my dion is a happi girl..(:
and when she turns 1yr 6months old, i am gonna sign her up to dance..
as she love dancing..
she hear songs, she will dance to the beat..
lolx..
there is nth more for mi to worry..
as dion is growing up fine under my mum care..
talk abit about my rs life..
ppl will wonder, why suddenly, i am single.
jus ystd..
kelvin ditch mi..
well is nth..
i mean i wanted to be single too..
half month ago..
we should have part.
but due to some reason, which he knows.
he manage to hold mi back..
but nv gonna hold my heart again when i know that he lied about his past to mi..
i tried to cast it aside..
but i am sry..
i still confront him..
he told mi the truth..
and i said that i wanna forget about it..
i didnt mention about it animore..
but my feeling wasnt love animore..
it become like i am someone who is locked up..
jus becos i am scare he will do silly thing..
but finally, ystd..
he let go..
maybe he feel that my heart wasnt wit him animore..
he is a gd guy i guess...
but not when he choose to betray my trust..
and a sudden thought ystd..
i heard ppl telling mi and askin mi..
"kelvin look and feel so much like junde"
and yes, till ystd i realize..
i am sry to say, becos kelvin did the same thing like junde do so much..
and somehow, when he was wit mi, i have the feeling when dion's dad are by myside..
i guess, all guys are the same ba:)
i am sry to say..
xuemin