is veri sick today.. bad flu, cough and headache..
but still woke up on time for work..
all my staff ask mi why i don wanna take mc..
but see how much work i have to do..
so much that i have to run 3 outlets jus becos they didnt reali do their job..
thankfully i still have a few responsible ones..
somehow they are those who is able to see mi as a gd supervisor to them..
is tough letting them accept mi..
but all i wan is onli the basic respect..
and happy to say, thing turning to better situations..
their mindset about mi being young but have to be their leader seems to be gone..
and finally i start to feel that work is even much more happier..
thou alot of thing for mi to do..
but i think is gonna be worthy..
i wanna do my best for the company..
as i feel that i have such a gd bosses and a manager..
all my staff are olways telling mi that they are scare of the bosses..
but i myself feel that, they are veri gd:)
they may seems to be strict..
but to the best of the company, it become a must..
but which boss will treat all staff to eat every month or alternatively..
which retail shop will give u 8days off/ month..
even if u choose to take the 6days off/ month.. they pay u extra when is actually not a mus for them to do so..
becos standard retail line is onli 6 days off..
nth gonna be happier to my life now..
see dion everyday..
a bf that changes himself jus becos i am having an veri high expectation..
sisters whom seems doesnt care about mi, but they do..
and brother growin up well and still well behaving..
dad and mum still as healthy..
and i may not be rich as the jerk..
but i have the world richest thing..
which is, happiness..
ppl don seems to know..
but i myself noe it best..
jus hope thing wit that family can end as soon as possible.
i pray hard that i have nth to do wit them..
but despite that..
i reali reali wan dion so much wit mi..
i love her so much that every thing i do, there will be her..
i will fine a ways whereby i can make dion's bio dad and his family stop to look for dion again..
even i have to lie that dion is not his...
the best and faster ways is i get married i guess..
but still i won wanna risk my marriage..
aniway, i don believe in it animore..
so no point talkin..
which girl won wan her wedding to be as prefect..
which girl don wanna have a happi marriage..
which girl doesnt wanna be wit the person she love..
which girl will be able to let everything go jus becos she don wanna force things..
i am that tupid girl..
i actualli could have a grand wedding..
i can have the one i use to love by myside..
i could have a better life then being a single mum..
but i choose to let go..
no point saying so much..
from love to hate takes mi so much courage to accept..
but sometime, jus sometimes..
i longed to have taste the marriage life..
life wit my partner and my baby girl..
will it gonna be wonderful or it is jus a dream..
if thing wasnt so bad..
i won have nitemares about him for a yr and more..
i shouldnt have believe in guys isnt it?
i should have jus lead a life myself..
and dion..
when i meet a nice bf.. a nice and wonderfully bf..
i nv treasure..
but thou i know he is awesome and extremely gd..
but still my expectation nv give in..
we had a small argument again..
it sound more like bickering..
he was right about i won forget thing ppl ever did to mi tryin to hurt mi..
i won forget about thing that i said i don like and ppl try to do it..
and i won give in to my own rights having my own privacy when i didnt even touch ur things at all..
even if i did, i will ask..
alot of things has to go on my ways..
jus becos i am a girl who nv gonna listen to what my bf say after all those shit thing that happen to my life..
maybe kelvin jus met mi in a wrong time..
if he has met mi earlier, i might have been a nice gf to him..
like how i am to dion's dad..
a sweet gf whereby i listen to thing he said..
i apologize jus becos i noe i shouldnt give temper..
but now, at this point..
that is already the past mi..
i am sry..
i tried to be fair to u..
i tried to give in somehow..
but no matter how i try, is nv gonna work..
becos i hold a gauge..
xuemin