i planned for this a few days ago..
hard decision.. but have decide to do it.. but in another way whereby he is able to be the one saying he hates mi and leave mi..
somehow like dion dad, i irritated him till we finally broke off.
i donnoe how to continue writing this post..
i am nv a gd gf..
that is why ppl love mi and hate mi..
i am not a gd girl that is why my parent don love mi when i was young..
i am not a gd frenx that is why every of my gf except jayda turn their back against mi..
i am not a gd mum, that is why everytime dion is unwell, i dk what to do except crying..
afterall, i am nv a gd person that is why all ppl will criticize mi alot..
i got use to that kinda of life..
got use to being alone when everybody jus leave mi one by one..
till he came into my life..
love mi wholeheartedly and i choose to make him leave mi..
i nv met such a gd and nice guy ever before..
i trusted him alot..
and entrust my heart to him when i gave up on the world..
after the once that he hurt mi unintentionally, he is veri careful in everything he do and say to mi..
but i see his change..
i am sry, reali sry that i change u so much..
makes mi wondering this few days that, i don deserve him..
i cant change for him..
but i can feel he is getting so tired..
but i don allow him to say as i am tryin to be real heartless this last few days..
i know him well enough..
i am gd in guessing..
i am sry to make u so heart breaking now..
but trust mi, i wasnt ani better..
let everything jus end tonite..
have a gd slp and tml will be fine..
is suppose to be 2 months today, but yes.
it become an end..
hate mi for a reason jus becos i hurt u this time for a revenge ba..
don ask mi why either..
i jus don wanna see u unhappi animore..
u deserve better...
i am tired after lookin after dion..
i am tired after crying.
so i jus wan to be on my bed now..
tml gonna work..
hopefully nitemare won hunt mi tonite again..
hopefully dion will get better...
hopefully everything will be fine for him..
hopefully..
i will do an editing on my blog even my link will be changed..
but not at this moment when i feel so tired..
gd nite world..
gd nite dion..
gd nite to u sweet heart..
happi two months wit u and gd bye in future..
xuemin