what ever it is.. i am not a gd person..
i am jus a big fucker who onli love myself and dion..
i am jus someone selfish who onli think fo myself..
i am jus a girl who typically rule the game..
i am jus someone who ppl will hate..
i am jus a veri fucked up girl..
a girl who has a messed in her life..
a girl who got herself preg and being a single mum..
a girl who shames her family for goddness sake..
a girl who is so irresponsible towards her life..
a girl who is nth but troubles..
thx for slappin mi hard enough to wake mi up..

and thx for reminding mi of my past a yr ago..
chocolates and sweets doesnt make mi happier..
becos the past is so hard for mi to take up again and throw it down to forget..
u urself promise u won hurt mi like them..
but jus becos of a ridiculous small topic..
ended up so hurting to mi..
all thing u said.
seriously i know is from the bottom of ur heart..
and i know..
u not longer can tolerate..
no more forever..
no more dreams..
i shouldnt have once being a fool to believe.
i shouldnt have have ani plans wit u..
becos the hurting part is olways wit the memorize..
i shouldnt have believe u are different..
i shouldnt have open my heart to let u in..
i shouldnt have...
all i wan is jus roll on my bed.. pat myself in my blanket and slp..
hopefully tml when i wake up everything gonna be fine again..
hopefully that nitemare won hunt mi tonite...
hopefully i still can hold on to the tears from the hurts u all left to mi..
hopefully tml i wake up to see dion, she can cruddle her mum wit a smile..
hopefully, everything will be fine jus for tonite..
who can i trust.
who can i tell..
who can i turn to now..
but i jus wanna be alone..
is olways my strength to be alone soping stuff..
and this time round i am sure is nth..

i am not, nv gonna be a gd gf..
jus be it ba..
so ridiculous but yet, is a fact that we cant change..
forever nv gonna reach us..
gd nite world..
trying to rest tonite..

xuemin