had a bad nite mare and of course a bad stomache maybe becos things i ate which make mi cant slp..
dreamt about jayken, crying veri badly to mi..
what happen to u baby?
are u unhappi?
is olways in my dreams that i am able to hug and pat u to slp.. :(
work is so freakin stress and tiring..
i feel like takin a long break.
but no la..
wild thinkin..
hahax.
i am happi and contented enough to have this job as everyone is nice to mi..
but i mus learn how to draw a line between work and personal problems.
read bf blog again..
and it seems like makin mi alot of thing to reflect again..
i don noe why i am able to meet such a nice guy like him..
such a understanding guy that i have no much time for him and nv ask anithing back from mi..
i tried alot alot to restraint myself from temptation..
jus becos i am tired after work..
and jus becos frenx to mi are all bullshits..
if u all seriously love urself..
pls do know what is control..
i don wanna see anione get hurt..
i am in no position to reprimand anione..
but i jus have to tell u all to learn to love urself more..
ppl are gossiping alot..
ppl are out there seeing how much i am gonna fall.
ppl are lookin down on my rs..
ppl are jus stalking mi everyday jus to have something to say about mi.
that the best u all can do!?
so u think jus becos i didnt say anithing that means u all are that gd enough..
then ask urself about this..
most of them are already a mum..
but young mums.
but one day u all will realize, is veri tupid to jus spend ur time gossiping..
might as well do some readings, or research about life and all menaingful stuff..
but of course i do noe.
some reali are brainless to think what is right or wrong..
but i don need u all in my life..
so what ever u all gonna say, jus don harm ani of my family members..
rmb once, when i was preg.
A REAL LIFE INCIDENT!
the aunty was gossiping about mi throwing myself to my baby's dad family..
jus becos they are rich.
and withing 2 days, she died after a fall in toilets.
i won do anithing to jus make u all suffer.
becos i know, u all will be punished for what u all have done..
sis getting married in 17 days time!
and ya!
everything is ready..
jus that sisters hasnt got our sisters bands..
hahax..
okie..
hunting!
hahax..
dion is having a slight cough la..
doc gave her another type of cough medicine to drink..
hopefully she is gonna be better..
veri soon, gonna be 10th months..
princess indeed..
she has everything she don need..
and as usual, her cloth are stacking up and is even more then mine..
toys is more then my shoes..
hahax..
dion is olways gonna be my sweet heart..
she build the smile and she build the happiness in mi..
without her, i reali will lose myself..
i thankful that i made the best decision ever to bring her out to this world..
at least becos of her, i lived and love myself well..
and thxful i met a bf who make mi smile without a reason and nv gonna make mi cry becos of unhappiness..
i love him alot too..
xuemin
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