finally had the time to sit down and blog..
was damn busy working working and working..
i love my job so much despite i had to work like so long hrs..
being a gd sales person is my achievements.
being a capable girl is my next achievements..
i am tryin to change from a party girl to my normal life..
is seriously veri gd under control now.
thx t my elder sis lecturing!
well.
seriously i have to apologize to her..
about everything i done to hurt her..
i understand why she has been doin thing to make mi feel so unwanted..
becos i am already a grown up, and a mum..
thx aniway for being able to understand mi better..
ystd was alex bday,
went to his party in setosa resort world, hardrock hotel..
was fuckin fun!
we played games and tryin to make alex drunk..
but seriously!
our plan failed!
hahax..
thx for the generous host(:
hope u enjoy ur 21st bday..
dion is such a big girl now!
she had her 2 teeth, she is learning to hold and walk herself now..
time pass rather fast.
8 months old now..
so proud of her (:
thx baby for being by myside safe ad sound..
mummy love u alot..
she growing up and look so much alike like her freako dad.
ahahx.
that is what make him love her more too ba..
who will say she is not his baby!
they are like 90 percent alike..
hahahx..
well.
dion is soon gonna go to his hse and stay..
and mi and mr sean poh is gonna plan for her first bday..
he wanted a simple one when i wan a grand one..
so should be having 2 diff celebration on 13th,14th individually..
and! on 15th nov.
we will be bringing dion to zoo(:
hahax..
wa! since so long i nv go zoo ler..
but is not for the fun of mine la..
is for dion(:
i hope she is able to walk on her on by then..
awww, lookin forward to it la...
hahahx.
sometime i think back..
luckily i didnt settle down wit dion's dad..
i jus felt that we are so much better being a frenx..
i cant imagine my life when i get married to him and we both don love each other..
i think he is trying hard to be a gd daddy now..
heard alot of thing about him from frenx, becos he will nv talk to mi about himself..
to earn more money and to be able to afford for dion, he is reali trying hard..
ppl can laugh at his doing, but for the first time, i feel proud of him..
i played a big part in ruining his life like he did to mine..
and he force and make mi change, and i force to change him too..
i onli noe that i freakin hate his parent now...
we both gonna work damn hard for dion sake..
for the small lil life, the ink on both our hand is true..
we gonna love her forever and ever..
how is my jayken doin up there..
i have been thinkin and dreaming about him..
my lil baby, if he is out he is like 10 months old now..
but today is 1 yr 4 months 2 weeks and 3 days old since he left mi..
how is living in the heaven my lil angel?
i hope u are happi..
thx for lookin after ur sis and protecting her while u can..
both of u are my love..
i olways feel for u.
alot more for u becos i was the one to be blame for ur lost.
ur lost of ur life.
ur heartbeat is ruin by mi..
my oni regret jus becos i didnt watch my diet.
dreamt about the day when i lost u,
i jumped up while slpin. the stage of losing blood wasnt the most painful part..
is the part whereby, doc sat infront of mi and tell mi i lost u..
to force u out of my body..
to make u leave my body i am sorry for makin u go through all suffering..
i feel scare, when lunar 7th month is comin..
i scare u blame mummy.
but u are my baby (:
i wanna use ur name to form a veri nice and meaningful sentence to ink on myself..
i wana have my 2nd and 3rd ink!
so tempting la!
hahhaax..
but! controlling..
awwww!
xuemin