today the shop close early..
so went home straight..
acc dion awhile then she slps:(
time of mi and her getting so much lesser..
i miss her at work..
so miss her..
thou is veri veri tiring workin such fuckin long hrs.
but is reali for her.
i hope she won blame mi for the less time i have wit her.
i reali don wan too.
but i have no choice..
fri went down to the court..
and went to request for monthly maintenance..
actualli asked for 1.5k.
but change to 1k..
i think he won agree de..
but i think if that letter goes to his hse, he has no choice..
meeting him to court on the 16th..
i gave him a chance months back..
asked him to sign on the custody and parenting agreement..
but he himself don wan..
is stated in there to be fair..
whatever dion money, we will share half to settle it..
is onli that part whereby the custody totally belong to mi..
i have told him ler.
is the best thing he can do ler..
he don believe..
so, well, don blame mi..
i wan him to be fully responsible of ALL dion things..
and i will thell the judge that his family is rich but nv gave mi money for dion after things happen..
hahax.
call mi a slut, or a bitch..
well, i will continue my plan 2 revenge on the 16th morning..
hahax.
i will make them pay for all they have done..
i swear i will..
make them regret lookin down on a 19 yr old girl who deserve a better life if it wasnt for them.
and i swear, WHOEVER WHO WILL GONNA HELP THEM
this include the one who gave birth to mi..
i will have her lock inside the jail for sure!
my heart feels so numb toward those ppl..
i wasnt like this when u all are nice to mi..
takin my gd for granted, and i will gonna make u suffer too.
MR POH JUNDE, this is jus the start of the game!
3 more days to my baby boy 1yr 3 months anniversary.
baby boy, how are ?
i cried today when mummy thinks about u..
it still hurts so much.
my guilt is forever.
i have thousand of sorry to say to u.
baby boy, where are u?
i was talkin about u today at work.
i didnt cry, but my heart was so aching.
god should have jus take mi away wit u..
and i don have to suffer so much now..
nv a day i forget about u.
baby...
mummy reali reali love u..
everytime i think about dion and baby boy,
the hate will jus come up.
and the evil side of my came out to tell mi to be more firm..
why he fuckin is enjoying there while i work so hard.
why he fuckin can treats like baby boy is NTH. while in mi it hurts so much.
don come fucking tell mi that is becos he is immature..
don come fuckin tell mi he is gonna change.
he is such a dick....
i am gonna rest soon. tml has to work again.
and i guess, tml they will receive the letter/summons from court ler..
gonna go play wit dion awhile..
and carry her to slp..
i felt so bad, for not being able to spend equally time wit her.
i am sorry baby. reali sorry.
u are the biggest precious of mine.
u are my princess and u are my one and onli love.
ur smile is my encouragement.
kiss from u is my biggest motivation.
hugging u i will feel veri peaceful.
i miss all the ppl in the previous company..
i miss all my frenx..
i will takkaire de.
thx for all encouragement:)
xuemin