bloggin abit here.
becos follow down from today onwards, might blog lesser then before ler..
but i will try upload dion pic every week?
no promise ba..
working from 11-9pm. sometimes there will be ot..
thou reali don like work the new job.. but what choice do i have to provide dion the best..
thou is gonna be tired.
but i reali reali wanna spend time wit her..
so decided..
no matter how tired i am gonna be..
i will come home after work to acc her wit all the time i have..
finally.. ystd i told dad about what i wanna do.
daddy support mi and agree to go family court wit mi..
i will gonna fight for what i wanted.
is not that i wanna be so harsh..
but i noe i have to put everything down before the new start of another year..
i noe daddy wanted nth to do wit that family olso.
so we decide to do what is needed to take their surname out.
i didnt tell dad about the court case i wanted months later.
but i told him if they wanna start the case, is still benefits for us..
i am not gonna be dumb and suffer alone.
i wanna him to regret of his own doin..
i don need u to survive.
but i too don wan u to live ani better.
i am sorry.. but i have to do it now.
veri fast, thing gonna end.
i may find the right key to release u away from my heart..
i am gonna be fine, dion too.
so u too.
i will not tell dion anithing about us ba.
but i will onli tell her,
"daddy died of accident.."
and if i am able to settle down before she turns 3..
she will gonna call the person who deserve daddy..

sis wedding comin up in sept.
and suddenly time pass so fast.
i will try to forget all unhappi things and lead a happi life..

aaron:
i have broke up wit u and stop the guilt i have in mi..
so i hope u can stop the feeling and move and lead ur own life.
jus pretend u nv noe mi.
jus take it that i am a bad women who cheated on ur feeling..


to the silliest guy i have met:
ystd we jus had a gd chat about pretending nth had happen.
i knew it long ago that this will happen.
u hinted mi like so many times.
i am not dumb..
but i don wanna be bad again.
i reali cant accept a new rs ba.
6yrs back till now.. thing had change alot..
we can nv be back to 6yrs ago ler.
u said i change alot from then.
yes, becos i have to grow..
i hope we are still frenx..:)


i have reali no more time for relationship ler.
reali reali don have.
if u all reali consider about mi, pls don give mi rs problem.
if u all cant take mi as frenx, then don blame mi for being harsh by avoiding u all.
if u all reali love mi, pls let mi go too.
i don wanna get ani other problem involve when i am still having so much stress.
i cant force u to stop ur feeling for mi, but i hope u all will try control..

all rite.. gonna go prepare soon..
and gonna have my cheque bank in:)
play wit dion abit and kiss her gd bye..
anithing call or sms mi..
pls understand i have no much time to blog..
but i have downloaded a app in iphone to blog:)
so hopefully i can be able to blog about mi and dion life..
<3

xuemin