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Saturday, June 26, 2010 love u:)
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Time: 12:25 AM
babii is workin
and i am home watchin soccer again..
seriously brazil and portugal game was such a disappointment.
talk about something here..
i love my gfs alot..
all of them..
ivy, melinda, apple, yukiko, yvonne especially..
i have lots to name.. but jus that especially to this 5..
i have confident to say this, i am a veri gd frenx who deserve them as my frenx..
ystd evening went babii hse to acc him..
watch soccer wit his frenx too..
finally after 3 days not seeing him..
and i reali miss him la.
thou olways being bully by him.
thou he is not a gentleman!
but i love him lots..
at times he will still hug mi and give mi a kiss.
peck my forehead like i am his world..
idk why.
why do we both like to make each other so jealous becos we olways like mentioning our ex or other guys or womens.
i don like la..
maybe reali have to talk about having a agreement..
yes babii. i reali reali don like la.
becos i reali wan our rs to be onli mi and u..
without others..
can babii??
one veri sweet msg from babii..
mi: "1st half no goal. but both portugal and brazil has 7 yellow cards out tgt"
babii: "okay... babii.. i love u la"
mi: "hahax. why so random.. hahax."
babii: "hahahah.. jus love u lo.."
i am smiling since then..
he reali has his ways to make mi smile and love him so much..
jus 1 day.. and i miss him so badly..
tupid babii..
he is complaining that i am becomin more naggy..
am i?
hahax.
stalking his fb like everyday, every hr..
hahahx.
i wan the whole world to noe his is mine..
so those tupid women out there noes he is taken..
hahax.
babii jus will make mi sound like a "small gas" gf..
i am not okie!
i won mind babii goin clubbing, drinking without mi.
i won mind he wanna do everything he wans, but jus let mi noe and don lie.
i won stop him from doin thing he wans to do..
i respect him in everything..
but to what i know, he wans mi to be abit more possessive towards him..
give him freedom he don wan!
hahahx..
i have my reason for being so okie to thing he do.
becos when i wanna go club, drink or even thing i wanna do.
he has no reason to stop mi..
hahhax.
he damn scare i go clubbing de! lmao..
but i am gonna stop ler.
without special reason i am not allowing myself to go..
i have been fuckin sick since 15th(the day mi and babii tgt)
havin this bad flu and cough..
donnoe why..
so xinku.
and babii DONT CARE! i bet he realise it olso..
he onli wanna care about who sms mi, who chat wit mi in fb or even msn.
hahax..
oppppssss..
SMALL GAS BABII!
i seriously have been tryin to show him i love him alot le...
i tried loving thing he love.
even thou tired. but i will try compromising him..
i hope he realize..
dion is gonna be 7 months 2 weeks in 2 more days..
such a big girl now..
she is still as timid..
she is still abit small size.
but she is growing well.
i am so proud to say, dion is a pretty girl..
thou she look alot like her dad.
but she has this face that ppl will like her alot.
i hope is not becos she came from a broken family that ppl like her..
becos i don wan ppl to pity on her.
she still has her mum and dad by her side.
and mi and her dad is veri peacefully talking thing about her..
after that day ba..
we jus wan the best for dion..
i bet he love dion too. i have nv doubt about it..
is onli that he is indecisive in thing he do onli..
he don like voicing out and make ppl guess.
thou different perspective in different views.
we both had this heart and dion name on our hand..
is all about her..
she is a sweet heart.
i can live alone wit her my whole life.
if babii parent will mind about i having a baby at this age.
the onli choice i will make is to leave him ba..
no matter what, as a mum. i do understand his parent point of views.
which parent will accept ur own children to be in a rs wit someone who has a commitment.
i am not a women who depend on mans to live my life.
i am not a women who don understand and don noe how to think.
so for the worst sake, i have to prepare if that day were to come..
i am sorry babii.
i have no such intention to leave u.
becos i wanted u alot.
i am scare of this day to come.
i am scare of u leaving mi.
haix.
sometime i reali wanna talk to u.
but i reali donnoe how too.
i don expect u to love my baby.
but as i tell u..
if u cant accept that she is my baby..
i am sry, i do what i have told u before.
i swear that i will nv accept guys who don accept dion as my daughter.
u may feel veri upset when u read this post.
but i am even upset typing it out.
jus like dion, i reali don wanna think of losing u..
babii, i am sry.. but seriously i don mean anithing okie.
don get my words wrong again..
i love u alot<3
hao la. gonna go rest awhile before 2.30am soccer start..
so tired..
hahax..
and dion is slpin wit mi tonite again:)
recently mum love snatching her away from mi..
hahax.
blog again soon..
xuemin
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