wtf! i am so damn irritated by calls and sms now!
well well.
i think he jus couldnt get my hint.
but i have been givin veri cold shoulder.
my time slot schedule wasnt plan wit him in it.
either frenx or dion.
i love and wanted to be single again!
he don seems to like dion too.
and is pointless for both of us to waste time ba.
if a guy that couldnt accept dion. jus jolly well get lost from my life.
to mi.
dion is the top priority and next up will be frenx.
i haven met guys who can ensure mi.
so is reali so pointless la.
zzzzz.
leave mi alone.
big thx!
arhhhhxxx! piss off.
i reali lost so much faith in relationship ler.
too much that i reali wanna be alone le.
i realize i reali grow stronger.
despite being lonely, despite envying ppl who has somebody by their side.
but is no longer gonna be a choice of mi ler.
don ask mi why. becos is so simple.
thx to him.
ppl say "u are pretty, u are cute, u are so sweet lookin"
but tell mi the truth, what did u all wanted from mi.
sex? body?
or a real heart of mi.
i wanted to find someone who is mature enough.
who show mi the real care i wanted.
and show mi the heart of his.
if u are not the one.
get lose.
what does it mean by a complete family?
when even family wit a baby can get divorce.
what is true love when ppl are being so unfaithful.
what is love when u don even noe what is important to mi.
and what is ur love when u don even noe and understand mi.
is so funny.
reali.
and greatly i am not effected.
jus being irritated.
i feel numb ler.
maybe,
my love ended on him.
or maybe i need yrs to accept new rs.
i don have so much fuckin American time for all this.
i have to work, i have to spend time wit dion.
i have to spend time wit my frenx, if not they might leave mi for goddness sake.
and i have to have my own rest time.
i have to save up for the court case.
i have to save up for a home of mi and baby princess.
and i have to save up for her entertainment, education her food and future used.
and what about myself.
i needed to save back my own saving for my studies.
and this will be place in a veri last place as i have and mus give everythin to dion.
and this will be my commitment for next few fuckin yrs.
xuemin