weekends pass so fast.
and this few days feelin even tired.
sis plannin her wedding, i am having a btt test. which i cant even rmb the date!
and i intend to change my job le.
having a job offer for a higher pay.
who doesnt wan. i love my current job.
i love all ppl here.
idk how to open up my mouth to tell them.
but something irritating happen again.
i am out on sat nite.
and when i am back home.
my mu tell mi that.
"dion nearly fell down from her sarong"
and i went into the room and see her. she is sound aslp.
so i though was okie.
and worst is ystd i am back home after goin cheryl hse for lebleb full month.
my month tell mi
"tell u the truth hor, that day she got fall ehx, but she nv cry"
"i jus tell aunt, aunt ask u to put the pin there. baby wasnt urs onli de horx"
what make mi angry is this.
why mus my mum lied to mi.
dion is my daughter.
she told the aunt then come tell mi the truth.
why mus i be the fuckin last person to noe!
and worst is
what fucking right she has to say dion wasnt mine onli.
what her son fuckin did to say dion is his!
what the hell right they have to say this!
i believe and trust that karma will fall on her family.
she still has a daughter!
if she couldnt put herself in my shoes as a women.
then i think
is gd that she put herself in the shoes as a mum of her daughter!
wtf!
i reali have the urge to bring them up to court!
to fight for custody.
and then is a right for them to give maintenance even if they don wan too.
nb!
don force mi to do it.
reali.
i find it damn disgusted by their family ler.
and my mum.
don take my gd for granted.
i am tolerating!
and is reali stretching over my limit ler.
i reali donnoe what to do is right or wrong.
i jus feel so bad.
so bad that i couldnt force my heart to walk more to u.
idk what is stopping mi.
i noe u have been trying.
giving in to mi, giving mi time to adapt life wit a bf.
but it jus feel so tough.
i didnt wana break the new to my parents. especially to my mum.
becos she dotes on that guy alot.
and thing will happen.
i noe even mi and that guy were to avoid each other.
but somehow, oneday.
we are gonna meet again
becos dion is the middle person.
and all my frenx. i cant take it that.
even if my ex bf wanna meet mi and i still need to consider ur idea.
i noe u are my bf.
but i reali have a da nu ren temper.
i won listen to ppl if i don reali wan to do something.
i wasnt like this in my past r/s
but i think becos was the time being alone and got so use to being alone.
and that i am like this.
idk la! idk why i feel so vexed.
idk why i feel so bad.
i donnoe why i wanna be back single again.
is jus the status and its makin mi feel so vexed.
my closer frenx should noe.
ystd went lebleb full month.
and it was like so long i met up wit frenx
lebleb grow up so fast since newborn.
and i kinda miss been a mum of a newborn! hahahx
baby boy is still waiting for the chance to come back to mummy rite.
ystd nite. i turn off light and slept early.
but i think arounf 12 plus.
i heard the sound of dion toys.
dion is slpin beside mi.
and her toys wasnt place near her.
and it wasnt mi and who is it?
is it baby boy?
i don feel scare.
i feel happi.
i smile myself to slp again.
how much i wanted u to be in my arms.
baby. mummy love u:)
dion is norti recently.
so crunky!
but i love her so damn much.
she is so smelly.
although she will bath twice a day!
hahax.
becos her saliva! lmao!
i promise to spend my whole weekends at home this weekends:)
wit her:)
xuemin