is so unbelievable that i have the mood to blog on weekends.
woke up so damn early today.
becos i have to go to my new job place to get things done.
and is all the way till 1?
ya.
hahax.
but aniway. starting the new job at 1st june.
gonna reali work veri hard for dion sake.
xuemin is a selfish girl. DION BELONGS TO MI!! hahahahx.
yvonne got hired to my current job. and that, she and i gonna work tgt at next week.
so that i can start hand thing over to her.
i hope she can be as happi as i am over there!
i am so tired.
becos after i reach home. i can slp.
play wit dion and intend to nap awhile when dad say he wanna bring her downstair to walk.
but i have a veri bad nitemare.
i dreamt about dion and dad had an accident when dad brought her out.
and both died.
wtf!
the biggest shock of my life.
and inside my dream.
i was blame by everyone, the guy and his family.
and my younger is was askin them to go away becos i was huggin dion body and kneeing infront of my dad.
and my elder sis was tellin that family that dion wasnt belong to them.
but mum was still helpin them.
is such a scary dream.
and i rmb was i goin up to a building and wanted to die too.
but that guy came and talk to mi.
till i drop on my knees and broke down again.
and then. . .
my phone rang!
hahahx.
apple called mi.
but i can feel tears on my face.
phew~
and when talkin to apple, i heard dion whining sound from living room.
and that i calm down.
tell mi nth gonna happen ba.
i can afford to lose everything i have. but not my family, not dion and not my frenx.
i don wanna go through ani lose of my own flesh again.
was wondering that i wanna go burn more toys i bought for baby boy tml.
buy some sweets for him.
no matter how mummy is busy, i won forget u de.
my babies, mummy love u 2!
i wan make myself be a role model of every single mum.
i am sure i did a gd job.
i hope u all too.
i wan everyone to be addicted to my blog.
becos i hope they all could learn a lesson about love and how to face the world.
as i olways say from the past.
is not wrong to be a single parents.
is onli wrong when u don take up the responsibility.

gonna be so so busy when i start the new job!
5 days off every months.
workin hrs so much longer.
say no to rs ler.
i am not lonely at all. becos i have all frenx and especially, dion poh xiangqin is by my side.
oh ya!
i rmb about a short conversation of mi and boss.
boss: how old is the guy?
mi: 24 yrs old.
boss: wa! why so immature and irresponsible?
mi: hmmm. ya lorx. becos his family is abit wealthy? pampered children?
boss: so ashame...
mi: hahax. ya. is a disgrace when he earn 2k every month and have his own car and has the money to go out fool around. but no money to pay for baby things. still need his parents to do the job.
boss: wa! (laugh) is so obvious u are so much mature...
mi: mus la. if not baby eat grass ler. hahahhax
i find this conversation so funny.
ppl knows it so much when i say he don pay anithing for baby things.
hahax.
i am prepare for they having the evidence of buyin milk powder up for baby.
and will gonna consult lawyer again about it.
but i think i noe what judge gonna say.
hahhax.
is a mus.
but aniway.
they don do it like every month la.
i still hold the evidence of him askin mi to pay back the medical fee.
hahhax.
and i make sure they gonna be so ashame this time.
becos i have more evidence....
if they are nicer, i won be like this.
too bad.....
tell mi what are the thing that a women who has been betrayed, lie, and hurt from a family like them.
i think things is worst ba.
i have alreadi told my lawyer about thing that is to be consider.
and i onli wanna fight the case wit dion dad.
so as to say.
if ani outsider were to interfered.
include his parents, my parents and sisters.
is not allow....
i am prepare for the worst.
i asked lawyer. what if he wanna start the case before i send him the letter?
the reply is. "the result is still the same, becos u are not married to him!"
hahahax.
is onli that i don have to pay for the lawyer fee! hahax. is under them ler!
hhahhax.
that is the consequences of askin mi to abort dion in the first place!

i have jus told gfs in plurk.
if everything is smooth as what i planned.
getting a hse for mi and dion, i will allow some to stay wit mi.
anitime when u babes need.
plannin to give dion the best. and that i have to learn to be more hardworkin.
she is what i am living for. if life without her i won wanna live too.

i think mi and aaron has ended ler ba.
i didnt pick up his call and didnt bother to reply his sms.
i think he is tired too ler ba.
but i will send him an sms about this break up officially.
sam called mi today with much surprise.
and he said he misses mi so much.
and derrick took over the phone.
i was so damn happi when i heard their voice!
i miss u guys too....
sam has move on his life without mi.
derrick is 1 step ahead to his dreams of being a chef.
and heard from them that, daddy & mummy is fine.
aniway i noe la.
hahax.
mummy still call mi de! hahahx
she is olso a reader of my blog!
hahhax.
she was the one who help mi through about baby boy.
thx mummy.

everyone around mi seems better ler.
but i jus don understand why some guys still remain as what they are.
sayin i am immature at that time.
but don't u all do some reflection?
24yrs old being said by a 19 yrs old girl.
has to make it so big when ppl owe ur frenx money.
but when he wanna return.
ur frenx himself said he fuckin has no posb acc.
then how?
go make la!
the reason why we don wanna pay u all by cash is cos u all will end up sayin he didnt pay.
so that is for the worst.
why cant he borrow u all de posb acc?
so that he didnt have to put too much effort makin one?
or jus like i said.
u guys wanna cheat.
make it bigger and the shameless part is urself.
mkain one acc don need 1 whole day to activate!
lol.
such a joke!
i cant believe i still trust u all so much.
say frenx.
but in fact. now i noe. i don even wanna be in the times we are as a group.
pardon mi from sayin this.
grow up ba.
24yrs old body but a 17 yrs old mind.
hahahx.

okok! i am gonna stop her today!
so tired.
gonna bring dion in and slp!
zzzz
nite:)

xuemin