had a veri high fever one monday evening.
38.4 and rises up to 38.6.
so xinku.
throat so fucking pain that even wen i drink water it hurts too.
baby said he feel so heartache becos he wasnt by myside.
but is so great that finally for the once in my life time, my sister SUVIN CHIN XUEQI
showed so caring side to mi.
she came home to fed mi medicine.
and although it hurts, swallowing the medicine and tearing.
but thankful, she force mi to eat.
feeling so weak.
but all i rmb was dreamin about baby boy touchin my face and him.
despite knowing is a dream, i reali hope it can turn real.
i dreamt about whole family tgt and went out tgt.
but i know, the fact is i lost the right of having a family.
living well wit dion. and i wanted baby boy so much
i think i will try put in more effort in this rs.
is becos baby trying.
everything is so different.
but one thing will nv change is his love to mi.
sending mi text or msn even when we are on the phone, tellin mi he love mi.
i promise baby that if we could be tgt till 4 months. i will cook a meal for him.
and due to i wanting to change a job.
ad had a job offer from london to be a beauty consultant.
wit a better pay.
i wouldnt have much time.
so was talkin to baby ystd nite.
say if i reali work in that job. i wouldnt have time for him.
becos i have onli 5 days off in a month.
and i have to accompany dion.
and i told him. the best way for him to accompany mi is weekend go fetch mi from work.
and without hesitating baby agree.
and he say, if i don have time to accompany mi.
he will find time to accompany mi.
and i told him. what if dion don like him.
then he said, dion will like him de. becos he looks friendly.
lmao!
i told him my frenx said he looks abit beng.
hahax.
i suddenly felt the feeling of i wanted more of his love.
be it selfish, i jus wanted.
i wanna put in effort too.
thou i myself noe clearly what is pulling mi.
i wanna break the rope to the reason and move on.
and i decide. to earn more. wait a few months more.
and i will hire a lawyer to break rs wit them.
do it in a very harsh way that they won be able to hurt mi animore.
and 2 yrs later as planned. on my 21st yr old. i wanna have a home for mi and dion.
and move out from those ppl who lie and betray mi becos of the family.
and if by then, dion cant rmb anithing about them. i will keep her daddy as a secret.
he and his family was the one who force mi to do such evil thing.
my life alone wit dion.
baby say he wanna move in wit mi.
but i asked him, "do u think we will still be tgt by then?"
but if we do, i won say no.
he wanted to go honeymoon wit mi.
but i don think i have the time either.
hahax. aniway.
veri funny sms we send ystd
mi: hate u baby
aaron: why lei?
aaron: ??
mi: no la. jus hate u lorx. hahax. not goin slp??
aaron: baby i love u ... good night
mi: baby. we don look like couple who is jus tgt horx. hahax. hao la. gd nite:)
aaron: why u like that say
mi: hahax. becos couples who jus in the beginning should be honeymoon period. that means sweet talk and all. but we are like bickering. hahahx. go slp la. gd nite.
arron: sorr i ns . . how to honeymoon
mi: hahax. honeymoon period is not goin overseas la. hahax. is the sweetest part of the rs. which is first 3 months. nvm. u so noob. hahax. baby. go slp la. why so late haben slp. what u doin.
aaron: ha ha .. baby u angry ar.. i give my sweet talk okie
mi: hahax. i don wan. i don wan honeymoon at first. becos if not we will feel bored about each other. we don so sweet okie. bicker more! hahax.:P why habe slp? u nv answer mi.
aaron:ok baby i go slp.. i jus now lying on bed
mi: hahax. okie. nite nite:) sweet dreams.
aaron: sweet dreams wit u. haha. baby min.
hahax.
so funny conversation!
hahax.
but kinda liking it.:P
dion getting older everyday.
i reali love her soooooo much.
that day when i am having fever.
she keep crying becos she wanted mi to carry her.
but my fever is so damn high.
i can onli hold her hand and touch her face.
wanna kiss and hug her olso cant.
then my mum was the one who look after her at nite.
so the most i can do is tell her to be gd.
but ystd i kiss and hug her after my fever was down.
hahax.
and played wit her.
but still don reali dare to go near her.
as i am still having the throat infection.
hahax.
hao la hao la.
don be naggy here!
hahax.
xuemin