enjoyed ystd nite. is a plan to club!
but end up jus drink!
hahax.
but one thing here!
i feel so guilty, becos i been a bad mum!
leave dion at home and went out despite time is so much lesser wit her.
i am so sorry baby.
slap mi for this.
i swear i am gonna stay at home for 2 weeks straight to acc her!
although i went drinkin till late nite.
ut went home still look after her at nite!
and mornin still came to work.
even is tired. but serve mi rite for goin out!!
dion princess:
baby! mummy so sorri.
didnt manage to spend time wit u ystd.
mummy love u lots lots okie!
havin my mocha fappuccino like every mornin nowadays.
is bad but i am so addicted to it.
it jus like i nv have enough slp!
sometime i wonder if i can ask my mum help mi too look after her jus for 1 nite so that i can have ful slp!
but i didnt.
i noe i will wait up in the middle of the nite to see wherede dion is fine de.
so no diff.
might as well do it myself.
alot of ppl sayin i am too slim!
yes.
i agree.
but everyone in the office should noe.
i ate alot more compare to when i jus join!
mornin eat heavy breakfast, lunch worst. and dinner, mum cookin.
but donnoe why.
my weight jus remain like 40.8kg!
pls let mi gain abit of weight!
i wanna look like a women who jus gave birth!
am i consider malnutrition?
him:
i am not too sure what i reali wanted.
having veri frequent mood swing!
but onli baby dion and him could calm mi down.
idk wherede i love him.
but i jus hope he will be wit mi.
what is/ does true love means.?
i cant accept myself being such a bitch to be another r/s to hurt ppl when i am not confident enough.
but i wanna be selfish.
my heart so numb.
don even feel anithing except for dion.
i hope is jus a matter of time where everything will be back to normal.
which is onli mi and dion.
why u wanna come into my life.
why would u make my life so miserable!
thinkin of u is so much for mi to take!
letting u go is another way of loving u.
and i did it.
i can live my life without u.
but u cant live ur life wit mi around.
i donnoe how much love is contributed. but i jus noe, i cant stop thinkin of u.
if can or rather if i don have a burden to myself.
i reali hope to ask u, can u be wit mi?
can u stay by myside.
can u show mi more of ur love.
but i am sorry.
i jus couldnt say all this to u again.
becos dion is my commitment.
then let thing stop here and u lead ur life without mi.
i reali hope u will be happi.
jus like as u say.
u are not ready to commit. neither do i willing to wait ler.
put u as a lil secret in my heart.
i am not gonna bother u again.
i will tell god every nite to look after u and hope another girl will appear in ur life treating u the best that i cant do.
the noble part of my love is letting u go.
so for my sake.
pls, be happi.
to baby boy, jayken:
hey baby, how are u.
mummy miss u so much.
recently u didnt come find mi.
i have been waiting for u to come askin mi to hug u in my dreams.
mummy send u toys and alot alot of sweets.
did u receive.
do mummy a favor.
give some or lil bit of sweets to those children up there.
is cos, by giving them u can have alot more gd friend, and mummy wans to tell all lil babies.
hope they are all fine.
are u happi now?
ystd mummy jus talk to god.
i hope u can be in a better family.
mummy don deserve u.
i am such a bad mummy.
if ever u will come back to mi.
i swear, i will change for everythin!
ppl tell mi, is a blessin for ur sis to have such a mum like mi.
but i disagree
becos rather to say. is my blessin to have ur baby sis.
if u are around, we don need ur dad. i will complete u and ur sis life wit mi alone!
but is too late.
i lost u before i noe u.
pls don be angry wit daddy and mummy.
i hope he would realize that u are olways around.
mummy fail to change him is my fault.
but mummy is tired too.
i hope u understand mummy feeling.
3 more days to ur 1 yr 2 months anniversary.
trust mi.
i nv forget u.
don forget mummy too.
mummy needed u so much.
i will give u more toys and sweets
keep u milk if u like.
or even clothes.
shoes, blanket, bed and all.
jus tell mum if u need.
i will give u.
i promise.
mummy love u alot alot too.
be safe baby.
xuemin