hihi, i noe my blog rotting ler. hahahax.
jus a veri short update here.
dion had met her dad ystd.
it was veri heart warming.
as i noe dion reali misses him.
jd carry her and dion stare hard at him for 5 sec and start cryin.
but i guess i noe the reason why she cry.
"why u took so long to find mi"
becos she gave him temper.
she don wan him to carry her.
and end up i bought her up to take her pacifier.
she then silent down.
inside the lift goin down to meet him again.
i told her.
mummy is the one who forbid daddy to see u.
do be angry wit daddy.
daddy love u.
and she reali alot better.
jd carry her, she cried, but after awhile later.
dion stop crying and enjoy lying down on her dad arms.
to what i saw. junde keep lookin at dion.
touchin her hands, her legs, her head and her face.
he reali love dion alot.
i mean yes i noe her reali love her.
but to mi.
he is still not veri responsible.
but as i say. if i have decide to give him a last chance for dion sake.
i am willing to put down all hates to him and see how responsible he can be.
i hope he reali treasure this time.
when he told dion that "mummy bring u go home and slp okie"
dion start cryin.
it reali shows that how much dion wanna him to be there.
i felt veri bad for that moment.
but i won apologize. cos i am thinkin for the future whereby i reali don wish dion would come ask mi
"why is daddy like this"
as a parents.
we mus be a role model to our childrens.
i am reali changing now.
for my illness, or even dion.
i am changing my temper.
i love dion more then myself.
i swear to myself before.
before dion is out, i told myself.
is dion is not prefect, as in (lose a finger or toe) or whatever.
i am gonna cut off my toe and finger to learn how to use 4 finger or toe to led my life.
i swear that if anithing happen to her.
i make sure i myself gonna go through the same thing to feel her suffering.
but i hope i won make her suffer in her whole life wit mi around.
hao ba:)
blog again
xuemin