dion is back by my side finally after a day of separation.
is becos i went to funeral, and cant go near baby for 24 hrs.
aniway.
yvonne seems better.
she is strong enough to take this ba.
her bf seems even upset! hahahax. and that is becos he and yvonne's dad r/s is gd.
is intend to rom in this dec. but becos her dad jus pass away. she might bring forward.
mus be within 100 days of her dad death. if not gotto wait 3 yrs.
hahahax.
woo~ hahax.
happi for her!
love. be happi olways okie!
although yvonne sis don like mi. hahax.
but she is cute!! hahax. and when she and my sis are tgt!
omg! hahahx.
dion soon gonna be 6 months! she haben had her 4th and 5th months jab.
but aniway. is becos she got sick before the jab and cancel and book again:(
ystd she is abit active. hahax. she flip when i was watchin tv. and without makin noise jus smile to mi:)
hahax.
so cute!
she mus be scare when she is in her dad hse.
cos his hse is alot bigger and maybe it jus doesnt suit her.
especially at nite, her mood is bad! hahax.
but due to some things and argument i had wit JD.
i think, is sooner or later we might have a big fight again.
aniway, when i was back home ystd and dion saw mi.
she was smiling to mi and hand rising up to ask mi carry her!
i feel so happi after a day of work and head home to see her.
lookin after her is tired too.
but i got so use!
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he jus seems to be so heartless and bastard!
he forgotten about first baby death anniversary.
he nv willing to talk about anithing about him.
and worst is.
he nv feels for him.
to him, a death person means nth.
but anit he ur flesh too!
is ur fuckin sperm that created him!
why dont u noe the pain.
u jus now how to say, "treat it as a passerby"
i rmb this so clearly that i reali wanna jus walk away from u.
can u treat dion as a passerby too!
can u!?
why u are so heartless.
why are u such a jerk!
why!
in my memories, all gd thing about u is hidden, i cant rmb.
but i onli rmb all those bad thing u did!
i read through my old blog and realise, u wasnt like this in the past.
u may not love mi like how i hated u now.
u may not like my attitude like how i hated urs now.
but baby is freakin innocent.!
how can u say forget and u did!
wtf is this.
it already hurt mi so much when i knew baby is angry.
he thought we forgot him.
i did not!
i guess is u!
the shifu say he might hunt dion.
anit u afraid anithing might happen to baby princess.
both is our baby.
but why it seems like baby boy wasnt urs.
i dream about baby boy every fortnight.
dreamt about carryin him to play!
dremat about how he wanna be love like how we love dion.
cant he share part of our heart too.
cant he deserve a part in ur heart?
u can have ur gf in ur heart. and dion in a small corner.
and baby boy ehx?
to mi they both occupied all of mine.
is jus becos i blame myself for the lost and dion is my onli motivation.
wtf are u thinkin!
i suddenly don feel like talkin to u at all.
not even about dion.
becos is jus a matter of time u might kick dion away from ur life!
she cries in ur hse.
and u and ur parents are complainin that u all are angry or whatever shit!
but what for get upset jus becos baby is cryin.
she is not in the wrong.
u all blame mi for not fuckin allowing u all see dion for fuckin 2 months.
but have U and UR parent think about what have u all did to mi!
all thing u all did to mi is enough to make mi break r/s wit u all and dion!
why not go fuckin fuck another women and fuckin make her preg
and see what she will do.
the answer is : MARRIAGE!
i did not.
i choose to be alone!
but u all didnt let mi go.
u still choose to hurt mi and ur parent acted that they cares for mi.
but all they will say everyday to mi is "PLS BEAR JUNDE TEMPER. HE NEEDS A FEW MORE YRS TO GROW TO BE MATURE"
BUT MI EHX!
who fuckin ever thought about my feeling.
no matter what u all did to mi.
i kept it to myself without tellin my parents.
they still dote on u and like u as who u are, and they said that i am the fuckin immature one who don wanna get married!
i went through everything fuckin suffering alone.
where are u then!?
i hate ur parent when they don wanna let dion stay wit mi,
dont wanna respect my feeling.
and u lied to mi too!
u said u won object dion staying wit mi, cos u too don wanna see her closer wit outsider.
but end up!
is ur 6th yi po!
but is not mine!
to mi SHE FUCKIN IS A OUTSIDER TOO!
why cant i have a say!
u all force mi to forbid to let u all see her!
is cos u all given mi a feelin that u all wanna take away her from mi!
she is all i have!
i lost my family when they decide to side u!
i lost my whole life when i decide to have dion!
i lost my fuckin life!
i don blame dion!
i don blame u!
jus god!
i needed someone to understand mi.
i jus wanna u all to put urself in my shoe to think for my stand!
ur mum is a women too.
but she is luckier cos ur dad is such a responsible guy!
unlike u!
jus damn my life knowin u!
u can come fuckin hate mi and hurt mi!
but don put the fuckin hard feeling on my both babies.
baby boy nv left my side.
they both gonna see how u and ur parent treating mi!
and don blame them for hating u all!
i think dion olways cry when seeing u all is cos she dislike u all!
does rich ppl only think for themself!
but u are not rich!
is ur parents.
u all wan ppl to be nice to u!
BE FREAKING NICE TO PPL.
rich ppl are brainless!
till the day u be responsible!
if not!
DON EVER PUT MY DAUGHTER PIC ON ANI OF UR PROFILE!
u don deserve to tell ppl u are a dad when u are so heartless and useless!
u may continue to come see her!
if she doesnt willing to learn how to call u, then u fuckin should reflect on urself!
babies too noe!
she felt better stayin in my hse!
cos smaller then hse the warmer it is!
i hated u so freakin much!!!!! arhx!!!!!
nth gd for mi to mention about u!
xuemin