reali thx for everyone for bday wishes.
happi bday to mi and my dumb ass sis! hahax.
finally a new beginning for mi.
done a tattoo on my hand.
yea. dion name.
i like it veri much and i will nv gonna regret.
i am not suspicious about tattoo name on my hands.
so pls stop scaring mi.
but if it reali will cause dion ani harms.
i will go ruin it.
but don forget, how many dions are there in this world.
as princess dion is xuemin life time commitment.
so nice to have all frenx who wishes mi at on my bday this yr.
i didnt wanna celebrate.
but i have them wit mi.
this yr is the veri first yr i pass my bday wit my princess.
kiss her on 12am today!
hahahx
and she gave mi a slap
"i am slpin la, don kiss mi"
lmao!
hahahx
but i still love her.
aniway, pls go under my link and look at apple and yvonne blog.
they wishing mi happi bday but make mi so so touch.
i reali feel veri veri happi having frenx like them.
apple, yvonne, cheryl, emily, germaine, jayda, iko, yuyun, zhao min, benson, and alot more la.
sorry if i didnt mention. cos i workin mus faster type.
hahax.
my gd and bbf! hahahx.
thx for acc mi throughout my preg.
i mus admit is reali hard and tough for mi.
alone is not easy.
i am not someone who will cry for what i lost.
but i have hang on till now.
my life seems veri bad.
but i don wan ppl to pity mi.
i wan them to say that i have done a gd job.
becos that is all i need.
i am tryin hard le. reali.
tryin hard to keep my tears to myself.
and trying hard to love dion.
she is my onli motivation now.
i noe i have alot of readers who will like view my blog.
i am not a rude girl.
but i am veri strightforward.
i don wanna lie in my blog so i be veri frank in what i post.
every thing i gone through is not what i deserve to be in.
but i have so much of frenx encourage mi.
i am not strong, but i cant be cryin everytime i meet problem.
so i gotto face everything.
my life wasnt like this before.
i am so use to be pampered by bfs.
but now i can say out to the whole world.
i don need guys at all.
i am unlike other ppl.
i don fuckin need a guy to survive.
but sometime i reali hope to cry out loud as is too much for mi to take.
i am onli 19. and i am tired.
i don mean it when i noe i didnt have much time to spend wit dion and still head out wit frenx awhile to walk or talk.
but is jus that. i need to have abit of space for mi to breath.
i don mean seeing dion i cant breath.
but is i feel so tired.
alot of ppl don understand.
the thought i am jus goin out to have fun.
i am not.
everyday i have to wake up at 6.30am.
reach home at 7.15pm and acc dion.
when she fall aslp and i will slp wit her.
then wake up every 3 to 4 hrs to feed her milk.
and again wake up for work.
is all for dion.
i won complain much. but jus hope everybody will understand mi.
about him, this sat we are meeting up tgt to discuss about the agreement.
and now in my memories, are onli left wit how he treated mi during my preg.
how he becomes so irresponsible.
how he fool mi.
i am not purposely forgetting.
but i donnoe why.
i cant rmb ler.
his image in mi are slowly fadin too.
and is onli him.
idk why.
but i hope i can reali forget him.
cos at least the veri next time i see him.
i won be so evil.
i rather i don rmb.
i use to be a veri forgiving girl.
but idk why. nv to him and his parent animore.
they are the one who forced mi to grow.
they are the one who hurt mi most in my entire life.
and the ones who i work so hard and lost everything.
but aniway.
forget it ba.
whenever i try to think about him, my heads hurts like fuck!
okie la.
i love all my bbf!
and of cos.
dion chin xiang chin.
xuemin