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thx for everybody comforting words.
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HAPPI BELATED CHINESE NEW YR,V'DAY and DION 3RDMONTH!
which all lies on the 14th feb2010=)
have been reali busy runnin about.
a veri veri happi thing is, dion went visiting to her daddy relatives.
i ran alot of places this yr.
bringing her, and is reali tiring.
but guess what. is worthy!
most of my relative love her.
and her daddy relative too.
but unhappi thing was.
i don understand why we still have to quarrel during cny.
maybe we are jus so much unsuitable ba.
haix.
i was so angry about his attitude and didnt talk to him at his aunt hse.
i jus feel so tired when he is olways like this.
when i went back home, he sms mi.
sayin he is sorry.
but he donnoe what he did wrong!
and i noe i am harsh.
but i jus say him childish, selfish.
but what to do.
i somehow reali hope.
time can turn back.
i will still choose to be wit him.
i will still choose to love him.
becos our past is a veri happi one.
but i will not choose to stay in contact wit anione in his family and him after i discover i am preg.
his mum, dad and sis are veri nice to mi.
till that extend that i sometime will forget we wasnt a family afterall.
but is jus that.
i wanna have a clear break wit him, but becos of aunt uncle and sis.
i cant do it.
becos all of them love dion.
is olways becos of them i willing to tolerate his stupid attitude.
but he olways took mi for granted cos he think that i love him.
i reali feel veri numb ler.
i reali hope he could be out of my life.
if he scold and get angry wit mi becos i did something wrong, i won say anithing.
but i got scolded, and attitude to mi for no reason!
for nearly 1 yr. i bear everything alone.
what fucking right do he have to even look at my girl.
is all becos of his parent!
i rmb, when i was veri down during preg, tired and xinku becos of sickness and my weak body.
his mum and dad are olways there to help mi.
if i can, i reali would wan them to be my parents.
cos since young, my dad and mum nv was that caring to mi.
i feel suffocating.
all becos of him.
but he nv will noe ba.
he nv gonna learn.
xuemin