19th dec 2009.
finally i have him back by my side.
we had a quarrel on the 18th at nite.
and jus becos of that he finally understand what i had gone through.
i reali did wonder.
wherede is a gd or bad thing if we are back tgt.
and thx derrick for tellin mi off.
he say is a gd thing that we all still manage to be tgt after walkin on a long track.
he ask mi to think about my mood and attitude this few days to babii
and babii did reali give in alot more.
i reali cant deny, i love him alot...
theway he hug mi, the way he disturb mi.
the way we are when we are not quarrelin.
i asked him to be more patient wit mi and secure mi abit more and i promise i will watch out on my attiude.
is alot different from the past where we jus started dating.
but had decide to start anew wit dion wit us.
i am married to dion for the rest of my life.
and married to this relationship.
but of course, i am still afraid, what is gonna happen next.
not planning anithing else now.
jus him by myside.
i love both my babiies.
this comin christmas will be the sec time mi and him tgt ler.
and now wit out lil precious, princess dion.
feel happi now thou.
tell mi everything wasnt a dream.
one step at a time.
we are gonna be even happier tgt de.
=)
today is mum bday.
happi bday mum.
and i am gonna bring dion out awhile jus to get mum present.
the new sofa comin in today.
suddenly i feel so lucky.
havin everything back to almost prefect.
my worst nitemares is reali over.
a new life and a new begining.
xuemin