ystd went to have baby birth cert done in the mornin wit daddy.
as to some complicate thing goin on, which i don which to say.
baby surname is wit daddy.
thou it does reali effect mi alot.
is jus as if i had a feelin baby is gonna leave mi.
idk why, why am i this tupid to.
i could have tell them all i too wanna have a say.
haing the thought, goin throught everything alone for 37weeks.
without complainin, being a gd girl.
but end up baby doesnt belong to mi.
i cried when huggin her.
reali pray so hard that she will nv gonna leave mi.
but who would think about what i feel.?
who would protect mi and say is not worthy.
who would come and help mi say out all i wanna say.
i don wan a place in that family.
all i wan is baby by myside.
i don wan u all to say u all dote on mi.
cos the feeling reali sucks.
if u all reali dote on mi, why do i feel so terrible.
fakin smile again and again.
i reali do wish to cry out alot.
but who noes.
onli mi ba.
i could tell nobody about it.
i cant complain.
cos i am the biggest tupid fool to agree wit everything de.
other then a tool to give birth to princess, what am i to them?
next up, what u all expect mi to do?
sorry to my daddy, i hope u understand.
xuemin