sam jus left my hse.
i cant slp but couldnt let him acc mi to "suffer" ba.
today is monday. and he only left 6 hrs to slp.
but i guess by the time he reaches home will be around 4.45am latest. but should be quite fast la. hahax.
the way he drive when he is alone.
tsk tsk.
hahax.
i had a talk wit him jus now.
and he finally confess something to mi.
i have log in to his email ystd mornin and i saw an email.
i knew all he wants is to make mi happi.
but he noes i hate liars so he told mi the truth.
he thought i willl fed up and tell him to leave mi alone.
but don worry, is been a month ler.
i now then noe why baby daddy is so angry about mi.
but nvm.
is not important to mi animore.
not important animore.
i jus blame it on myself.
being so stubborn.
sam kept apologising to mi.
i noe, no matter how much i don trust guys now.
i shouldnt put sam into the same catergory as "jerks&bastard"
cos is been nearly 4 yrs.
sam is olways by myside and i couldnt love him.
treated him so curel till i hate myself.
3 times i allow him to be a bf of mine.
but i nv treasure him at all.
who could love mi more then him?
i asked myself this question.
he is smart, he is gd lookin, he is sweet and thoughtful.
he nv raises his voice to mi ever before.
but maybe there was this once he don wish to talk to mi ba.
but a few days later this silly boy will come finding mi and apologise for no reason.
he tried to leave mi.
he tried to stop himself from comin closer to mi.
but he is jus so funny.
hahax.
we talk about it jus now.
he too told mi he is heartache to see mi go through everything alone.
and joke about i marryin him.
thx god i had such a gd frenx wit mi.
after dion out he planned a overseas trip jus us both.
but what about my daughter?
i cant leave her alone ba.
see wherede my mum could help mi look after her ba.
he wanna bring mi to Milan.
is at italy.
i hope i could go=)
so nice.
hahax.
but i may have to consider alot of things ler.
apple asked mi to study accountings wit her.
but compare to tourism courses, accountings is alot more ex.
i will have to talk to dad again.
dad has told mi.
he had eye on a hse somewhere near town.
is quite far ler ba.
but i jus misses all my best frenx stayin here!
and i too don wanna add to my dad burden.
i am reali thxful that he too dote on mi and princess.
if we movin to a bigger hse, ah ma will be comin to stay wit us.
and she too don have to work.
jus spend time wit her great grandchildren.
she definately will love this dion princess.
cos is her first great grand children.
i love a hse so warmin.
and it makes mi think about baby daddy again.
i rmb once his mum told mi.
she too hopes her children could spend more time wit her.
the reason why she and her husband like mi is cos i am so willing to acc them wit my time.
and i can hear her feelings.
i too hope baby daddy could listen to mi, "treat ur parents better"
not that i wanna nag! i am not a auntie okie!
hahax.
is cos they are too such a nice parents.
i olways tell my frenx, i hope to have a parents like them too.
pls treasure them before u lose them.
cos nobody is gonna be by urside forever if u wanna treat ppl so bad.
ur excuses is olways "u should noe, i am not gd in expressing myself"
but i olways wanna tell u, jus abit of initiative and abit of time spend, maybe plus abit of talkin.
everybody will love u alot.
actually is alreadi not to my concern ler ba.
as i did tell baby daddy mum once.
in my heart, they are too like a parents to mi ler, thou not fated to be their daughter-in-law.
but they could treat mi like another daughter of theirs.
is totally another case from "marryin" to their hse okie.
she told mi that i am the first girl that she would let an "outsider" noe about her hse sercurity password.
and she say to mi, treat her hse as my own hse.
thou she noes is impossible cos she noes i am stubborn too.
but other then a fail r/s wit her son.
i reali feel blessed knowin them.
she did wanna gave mi money, and i rejected her.
she did wanna buy thing i like for mi but i don wan.
i don need anithing from her.
cos is enough for mi that she loves dion.
i am still counted as a veri xinfu person ba=)
rite.
everyone loves and dote on mi so much.
so i got nth to ask for ler.
i am still scare about what dr lee told mi about the labour.
but i noe everyone will be waiting outside the room jus to welcome princess and to wait for mi.
this is all i need.
this is the encouragement i need.
i won complain if nobody is allow to be in labour wit mi.
cos some doc onli allow husband or bf.
but xuemin can be alone for this long.
a few hrs i too can be alone de.
baby needs a mum.
so i promise i will make it through the labour de=)
time is closer everyday, every hr, every min, every sec.
xuemin 会加油的!
is been 46 hrs without slpin!
nearly 2 days ler.
i am reali tired.
so gonna try slpin ler.
jus gave baby dion a feast!
hahax.
eat full full.
and SHE IS STILL KICKIN=.=!
lolx.
but i am gonna pat her slp ler.
cos i am gonna fal sick soon.
i don wan early labour okie!
hahax.
so cannot be sick.
i shall blog in the afternoon or evenin i wake up again all rites?
i cheatin baby to slp.
hahax.
i purposely huggin MARLEY! hahax.
but she noes is when i place marley near my tummy!
like wanna kick marley away!
hahax.
i took a video of princess kickin.
she actualli didnt wanna mi to take de.
but i told her
"let mummy take and show daddy ba"
thou i noe he will not see.
but as long as baby is willing=)
clever mummy!
hahax.
nites=)
xuemin