jus finish editing blog.
words are kinda small.
but i guess for the rest should be all okie ba=)
is soon gonna be 6am.
and i haben slp.
hahax.
thx to joss, i cook "babies" congee to eat.
is those specially for baby.
but i jus wanna eat.
so i cook it and ate 2 big bowl.
hahax.
baby kinda active again.
tml i am gonna meet her again.
pray hard that she will grow ba.
i am sorry for havin such a bad appetite.
but i too donnoe the reason.
gonna ask doc to give mi slpin pills ler ba.
if this continues, i am gonna be a zombie!
i wasnt so active in plurkin too.
all babes and loves mus be wondering where is xuemin.
veri soon, gonna be a mummy ler.
won have much time online too.
short break after my bday i will start workin.
i look forward goin milan!
hahax
and guess what yukiko said?
ask mi go find paris first=.=!
can anibody catch this lame joke??
hahax.
sebes wedding needs alot of my help too.
i am not tryin to be kpo okie!
but wendy says she wanted mi to give ideas.
so spoke to mi about her wedding plans.
where will she wanna plan at.
hahax.
i feel so happi for her.
i too longed for my own wedding ler.
hahax.
and if i will to be married, baby princess will be my best bride maid.
hahax.
idk what is gonna happen in future.
or the question of wherede i am gonna have another r/s
BF IS A TROUBLEMAKER!
hahax.
oppss(@_<)!
i had a very very selfish and bad thinking today!
i find it so bad that i hate myself.
i actualli told myself i wanted my own life.
without baby.
i thought of sendin baby off.
but i reali cant bear to do it.
i don like myself being so irresponsible!
tupid mi, thinkin about such things.
i am sorry baby.
mummy don't mean it.
mummy will keep u by myside till i see u get married.
and i will make sure u will be a veri nice and well manner girl that everyone would love.
maybe mummy is not gd, but my expectation for u will be high.
cos i jus wanna prove to ppl that i being a single mum.
had such a wonderful daughter.
but of course, mummy will not stress u.
i will learn to be a mum and then a best frenx to u too.
stick wit mummy okie=)
my tummy kinda bloated.
i feel veri terrible if i sit down.
but no choice.
cant be lying down 24 hrs too de.
thx to baby.
hahax.
i may be changin her christian name again.
provided if i am able to find one nice one thou.
i jus see some of my brother photos.
hahax.
he is so damn cute.
i too don like to be so strict to him.
but whole family pampered him till he still needs my mum to feed him for meals.
to share my love equally to him and princess, i needa learn to be a gd sis too.
but of course.
compare to others pri skool student, i have confident that my brother is gd ler.
alot of ppl say he look veri alike wit mi.
hahax.
assumin i bring baby princess and him out.
hahax.!
ppl will say both are my children ba.
hahax.
since young, i am olways the one lookin after him, teachin him, and strict to him.
so seeing him grow up now, i feel happi too.
he is like my own son.
he is so sweet to say
"er jie, baby come out ler, i kiss her and let her play toys okie?"
hahax.
thou he will be veri jealous that everybody will love dion more.
but i have told him before.
if he is still as gd as now, and his homework all done and spellings all right.
i will still dote him de.
hahax.
so he understand ler lorx.
sometimes i reali thinkin.
if i suddenly disappeared, who will be upset about my leaving.
is the more i am afraid of death now.
cos my parents, my brother, and dion needed mi.
and i am afraid that no one will be there to help mi look after them when i am gone.
hao la.
i am slpin ler.!
soon everything is gonna end ler.
xuemin